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Friday, January 21, 2005

Today Is Hari Raya Haji

today.. is a very borin day.. but i so called am relaxed.. cos i'm at home practically the whole day.. wow.. in fact i spend almost the whole day in front of my computer.. but.. not forgettin.. i also got go makan.. bwahaha..
anyway i'm really happy cos i got my new computer table which is really nice to me.. Yay!! enjoyin it really much..
i've been really troubled and upset deep inside.. i feel so alone again.. i think when i feel alone i'll write it in here.. school has been a real pain in the butt.. its really stressful.. i still somehow can't find the way to destress myself.. and it seems like nobody wants to talk to me.. anyway i feel i actually kinda suck and talkin to girls.. haiz.. but.. its ok. i think i can learn rite? lol..
but anyway its really good news that agent fah and i will be able to produce another film.. a real funny one.. hopefully it'll be even better than last year.. we now roughly know wad is needed in the film..
sometimes i jus feel somebody is really yet to understand me.. the feelins inside of me jus needs to come out.. its not that i don trust the rest but somehow it seems like i'm still waitin for the right person to come.. haiz.. life.. Anyway Selemat Hari Raya Haji.. Hope i got that right.. don really speak malay u noe..


MC signin off....

Sunday, January 16, 2005

Sunday Afternoon...

My shadow is the onli thing thats walkin beside me.. This is the thing which is on my mind right now... i don get it y i'm feelin like this... darn.. at this moment i feel lonely.. i feel like there is nobody who really understands me.. and worst of all i think i don really understand myself either.. its like i'm still searchin for wats troublin me inside of me... God... I feelin so alone right now.. The worst is that i've got all the people there for me.. willin to help me lighten the burden deep inside of me.. well i guess is maybe because of school or my love life.. or maybe is jus me thinkin too much maybe? well.. haiz..
sighs are the onli things i'm constantly doin right now... but at least i feel rather relief every now and den.. i think.. The song " Slide along Side" by shifty really brings alot of memories to me.. it really makes me feel better after listenin to that music..
well i'm also glad at the same time is that i'm goin to get a new table.. for my computer.. excellent.. jus can't wait.. cos now the current one is really small..
i think thats all i haf to say today... untill den.. this is MC signin off...