DA bLaCK BooK...

ok.. D&t was alright la today.. okok.. difficult.. yeap.. hmm... prelims prelims.. jia lat jia lat.. i dunno wad i'll do once the results come back to me man.. yukes.. scared.. nvm...

jus wanna annouce tat i jus bought this little black book.. bwahahaha.. i'm gonna store somethin in it.. hehe.. cannot say or else ppl also wanna do den nt fun le.. but who knows maybe already got ppl started doin this thing already.. like one of me friend's also done it before me.. but, i never pick the idea from her lahz.. she also never say anythin abt it.. so jus lucky tat we're doin the same thing.. bwahahaha.. and my tittle of my book is [ RiDiNG ThE HiGhS ] ohh yeaaaa.. hahaha.. can't wait for the prelims to end so i can start a lil on my book.. hahaha... whOoooOo...

tml i've gt chemistry.. jus finished tuition.. hope i can take it tml.. i always sucked at science.. darn.. can't believe i even gt an A for my PSLE for science.. hahaha.. soo sick.. nvm.. MOS sounds pretty cool actually.. hahaha.. kinda enjoy it?? wahahahaha.. ok.. nutsy over takin me.. ahhHHhhHhh...

hmm... i also can't wait to take some movies from fah later this week.. haha.. whole load of shows comin my way... yeaaaa... computer not enough space... i'll think of a solution.. I haven eaten.. HUNGRY...

[ ArE YoU ThInkIn WaD I'm ThInkIn..? ]

m.C.

BacK AT 10...

i'm back.. in da mornin.. woohhooo.. excellent.. but not tat happy la.. cos so many things on my mind.. darn.. physics paper was hard today.. don think i can make it.. haiz.. tml is D&T.. hopefully can at least gain some confidence back? but, still must study la.. pphhoooo... this sucks..

i dunno but i think tat i'm gettin myself into some trouble.. trouble in da heart..!! haiz.. not sickness but.. LOVE matters.. am i in love with someone new?? hahaha.. forget it marcus.. cannot make it... nvm.. i also hate her alot at the same time.. cos SHE sucks.. YEaaaaa.. ok.. i think this paragraph is a total joke.. hahaha... forget it...

soo i'll be meetin the usual at delifrance to study.. ohh yeaaa.. deli in My tummy... bwahahaha... hmm.. heard abt ashley story.. but, its alright.. its all part of growin up..? so chill my gd man and let the good times roll.. hahaha..

i jus can't wait for the prelims to end.. but at the same time i'm thinkin, i've gt more studyin to do if the prelims end rite? darn.. got to study even harder and more for the O's.. dam.. this is soo sooo bbbbaddd... haiz.. stress.. i think i gt to stop here cos i dunno wad else to fill up and i've gt to set off to go and study.. study study study... PhoOF..!

[ I'm RiDinG ThE HiGhs, I'm DiGGin ThE LoWs ]

m.C.

YAsTerDaY...

yesterday.. i was in and out of the house non-stop.. in da mornin met up with sis and fah.. the dude was as usual late.. we met up to study.. i guess it wasn't how it was expected to go.. this sucks.. i dunno but.. darn.. physics exams is tml.. scared.. so thats y i'm soo gonna give my all when i'm revisin later on.. so after that we all went our separate ways around 2 plus... i jus hope now that time could jus go back.. so tat i really can enjoy myself.. haiz.. all i can do now is jus look forward in time and do wad i have to do..

so after that asked ashley whether could meet up with him and if i could jus pass him the present.. i actually haven bought the present yet... it was kinda in a rush cos all of us were havin our exams... so no time to go get his bdae present.. he was in a rush to go meet up with his gal.. there was a change in plan in meetin him.. cos i don wan him to be late in meetin her so decided to pass him the present after he has met her.. i don wanna spoil the fun so if u wanna know wad happen on his side of the story abt meetin her i guess u could jus click on his blog but i'm not sure whether he has updated it already anot.. [ Ashley ].. to go check out how his meetin with her went.. so in the end we the coffee buds still met up in the night.. it was great.. i missed that moment for a really long time already.. so we went to play POOL.. Yass.. finally.. while we were playin, loads of weird things kinda happened over there.. dudes ran in to the pool area without lettin the ppl check their ID's.. they don look like they were below 16? but, i dunno y la.. khim leng and i guessed they were maybe 15? i dunno la.. first time.. one guy borrowed Khim leng's EZ link card to try to bring his friend in.. but.. too bad.. cannot make it.. hahaha.. nvm.. wad shocked me after tat was tat ths young man.. i think 10yrs old and below threw this chair and his friend??? crazy.. den scold bad words like expert man.. woow.. the two "fightin" were both below 10 yrs old.. and its all over INTIAL D the game.. haiz..

so after that as usual, went down to BUCKS to have coffee... i drank the second cup?? becoz in da mornin i net up with sis and fah at starbucks.. haiz.. stress.. hahaha... but still slept in the end when i reached home.. its nice to be able to chill out as usual.. btw, we bought for ashley a BASKETBALL... so yeap... hope he likes it.. hmm.. next week will be the last week.. ohh yeaaa..... i mean for the prelim exams.. haha..

finally managed to talk to aunty dinie on msn.. she was also nt alone.. she was also being questioned whether she gt feelins and all that kinda crap.. so we've decided that.. we IGNORE it lahz.. so in other wards.. we still cool as ice man.. hahaha... ain't gonna let those shit stop the fun from happenin man.. wooohooo.... ok.. i was jus curious.. who started all this crap? hmmm... * thinkin really hard* but anyways who cares.. life still has to go on..

i jus realised that life indeed do consist of ppl who needs u and u'll be there.. but when they don need you, u jus become thin air.. kinda suck actually.. last time i thought it was all crap but kinda feel the pinch now.. but, once again.. who cares.. Life still has to go on..

[ Enjoyed It, Loved It, Felt It, Missin It.. What Is IT?? ]

m.C.

exam time.. WAhhh.. stressed iNdeed..

this period of time has been really tough.. hmm.. i was jus thinkin.. i always say days have been tough.. hahaha.. siao.. nvm, prelims jus started for me.. yeap, some of my friends from other schools have finished their prelims.. i'm afraid of the O's.. i'm still nt prepared.. i'm tryin my best to get things into my head like things to remember for exams.. haiz.. my memory is failin.. somebody help meee..!! nvm.. i'll always try my very very best.. yasss...

nxt up.. i have been enjoyin myself studyin with my friends.. they r like excellent bunch of ppl man.. i enjoyed the time havin to study with em.. btw, i had the most memorable experience.. haha.. its fun la.. ok.. and they are.. fah, syazwan, sis and meee.. yas.. its gd.. i think wad i really remember is havin to meet up with han loong in delifrance and he treated us with 2 peach tarts.. wooohoooo... its was heeellllaaaa nice.. can't forget.. can't thank him enough for tat.. haha.. prelims is a real pain in the butt.. it sucks.. dam hard.. i don think i can make it man.. i'm prayin almost everyday jus to hope tat i'll be able to get a pass for this and tat.. haiz..

nxt.. its really weird tat this md noh jus suddenly msg me out of the blue askin me if i had feelins for aunty dinie???? wad in da world?? for a moment i had all the possibilities formin in my mind.. hmm somethin like, is noh gay?? does noh have the hots for her tat's y he is askin me tat or maybe somebody took his phone and msg me?? so is like i decided to give him a call and ask.. and to my surprise its him who msg me.. gosh.. i dunno wad is goin on but i don really like how things are turin out.. it seems like ppl think tat i've gt feelins for aunty dinie.. haiz.. i'll make it clear.. I DON HAVE.. and we are jus friends lahz.. anyway she is nice wad, so its only natural tat i enjoy her crazy company rite?? so ya la.. and besides i will have to think many many many many times before i even wanna chase a gal.. so far, none in sight.. i pretty much enjoy how life is now.. so don wan no crap goin on again.. i hope so lahz..

nxt, today went to play bball with ashley, jonathan, khim leng, cindy, teck woon, yong liang, see heng, wilson etc.. so it was a fun thing done.. yass.. i enjoyed myself anyways.. but there was a dirty lil secret.. its only between the dudes who went out buyin drinks.. hahahaha.. anyway fun.. enjoyed and suffered a little.. cos is like i kinda strained my leg durin one of the jumps.. so yeap.. game was alright.. good exercise though... DUCK RICE.. DAM SOLID MAN.. hahahaha...

next week.. all my papers will end in da mornin.. yea, tat's somethin worth shoutin abt.. and i'm gonna have one paper everyday for the whole one week.. hahaha.. yea yea... dam bananas.. this is soooo goin to be great.. yassahhh... alrights, i think i'll stop here.. oh ya, before i leave i would like to wish ashley all the very best with his erm.. " friend"... u can do it man!! ok.. byess..

[ LoVin EvErY MoMenT.. LeT's MakE ThIs LasT FoRevER..!! ]

m.C.

StRess JourNey EnDSs...

finally.. i handed up my folio already.. and i finally have some time to spare to scribble somethin down over here.. this week has been a really stressful and really tough one.. folio was the killer that was doin all this harm..

there was a really big trouble that i caused.. and i dunno whether to say anot but it was me that was really in the wrong.. i chose to ran away from reality and i switched off my phone.. nobody could contact me.. friday was the dateline that all of us were suppose to hand up the folio.. but me? i chose to pass up on monday which was not allowed.. so friday i ran away, switched off my phone.. mr lee was freakin pissed because of that.. scold ++++.. so that was how piss he was man... and when i decided to switch on my phone? all calls and smses from my friends came in.. my parents called me too.. all were tellin me that i had to hand up my folio by friday.. i was shocked.. i thought it was possible for me to hand up on monday.. but i was wrong... the moe ppl were comin on sat mornin to mark the folio's.. so i was given a second chance by mr lee to hand up my folio on sat mornin.. and when i gt home i gt fired by my mum and definitely i had the heaviest heart.. i felt guilty.. is like i disappointed my teacher.. haiz.. u may not understand when u r readin this.. is like there is soo much more text missin from here.. i dunno how to put it..

i stayed up the whole night tryin to complete the folio.. and i did.. i finished my folio without any sleep.. i worked on my folio from 10 plus at night to 7 am the next mornin.. got my uniformed ironed and set off for school immediately and handed up my folio.. and at the same time i handed a letter of apology that i had written to mr lee.. i owed him one.. he has helped me loads and i still disappointed him.. haiz.. i'm takin things for granted.. i reached home around 1 plus in the afternoon and managed to catch some sleep.. i think abt 3 hrs of sleep was how much sleep i managed to catch.. cos i had to go to my grandma's in the evenin.. jerald is already walkin.. that's cool stuff.. he is still as cute as ever..

lesson learned from all this experience.. try runnin away from reality, u get it comin back to you really fast.. and they hit u back really really bad in return... it sucks.. but its all over now.. i've learned my lesson.. hope it will be a smooth journey up ahead..

[ WooW.. ThE FuTuRe YoU... ;) ]

m.C.

TiMe...

finally.. i've managed to finish my D&T artefact. and its somethin not to be proud of.. because it doesn't look that wonderful.. so its rather a disappointment to me.. upsettin man.. sadden.. today was also a day where my eyes was really wide open.. i saw true friends.. really true friends... it was the most touchin moment i ever encounter in my life.. huzaifah and hakim are the dudes i'm talkin about.. they waited for me to complete my artefact and was constantly helpin me with the with the solderin of my electronics in my artefact.. my artefact is small and there is very little space for the wires to move around.. and it was something that was hard to put together.. when i was there i felt impossible.. i felt that it was impossible for me to finish my artefact because of the size of it.. puttin soo much things into something that small.. they gave me hope.. they gave me encouragement to carry on.. it was soo tough tat everytime we tried to put it in, there was bound to be some wires that gave way.. that broke.. i wanted to give up, they told me to try.. we soldered em together and put it back in.. i think we took about an hour plus doin that.. three person with a small piece of artefact.. and with a whole lot of determination.. i really wanna thank them for really being there for me.. THANKS BRO's.. wad's more nice was that they tried to stay as long as they could for me, even though they had prayers they still tried their best to be there for me.. its great to know that ppl like em still exist.. RESPECT..

i cycled to school.. its the first time i really appreciate my sis being there for me.. she was there for me all the way.. when i was stress and down she was there beside me constantly pullin me through this tough ordeal.. so i met her for lunch and i enjoyed her company.. its nice.. so when night came, i was at home.. bored to death.. fin could nt come out becoz he was on the other side of the island.. the dudes, khim leng and ashley.. couldn't come out.. soo i was hopin for my sis to call see whether i could pick her up anot.. and finally.. she called.. so met up with her and it was good.. finally i was out of the house and i had someone to talk to.. nicee.. phew... thanks sis for being there for me.. its kinda sad to know that the letter aka poem i wrote for sis after the break-up was being torn by her younger sister.. and wad's worst is that i can't remember was i wrote..! sharks.. it was sad to see her kinda shed tears over that.. so i guess wad's written will always stay in the heart?.. no worries sis..

its a pity that the ppl i wanted to be there wasn't really there.. they were probably busy with somethin i guess.... after all, their lifes don revolve around me? so its alright i guess... at least i'm feelin better.. so thank god.. i'm happy for a while.. time is runnin out for me, not as in i'm dyin or somethin but, studies and assignments to hand up.. jia lat.. i didn't know that D&T was such a pain in the butt.. its tough.. i'm kinda worried abt other subjects too... haiz.. hope i'll be able to cope well.. i jus found out somethin.. i know why my brain can't load fast like last time.. because i've nt been usin my brain much.. last time my brain was thinkin because i was busy fixin my computer.. i open up the computer and cracked my brains jus to think abt wad was to be done and how to do it.. now, i don even open it up to see.. haiz.. stupid me..

so i guesss that's all abt for wad i've been in.. its tough.. now gt folio to stress over.. late nights here i come!!!

[ ThanKs.... ]

m.C.

I WaNNa RuNaWaY... TaKe Me WiTh YoU...

its the most stressful part of my life this week.. my mind is being stretched to the limits.. things are goin very wrong in my life... even though i've got all the support i need from all my friends i still feel that i'm not able to stand up on my own.. i'm fallin in to the darkest pit slowly... i'm tryin.. painful death?? ahh.. this sucks la..

i can't seem to psycho myself in doin stuff.. one big pain in the butt is D&T.. its the thing thats really killing me right now.. i'm struggling tryin to finish up my artefact.. i dunno wad's keepin me.. i've got to finish it by tml.. wish me luck man.. the only fun things that happen yesterday at starbucks was that arifin and i thought that we had jus seen a guy dropped a 50 dollar note.. so we had our eyes locked onto the "note" and lookin around and at the same time waitin for the guy to leave so that we could go and make our move on da money.. durin that time while we were waitin.. both of us had dreams and thoughts abt wad we were gonna do with the money.. but, too bad la.. it was jus plain paper.. hahaha.. joke... the atmosphere was really tense at that time.. cool.. it was overall fun la i would say..

but................ i'm still troubled by the D&T lahz!!! this is sooo soooo baddd.... ahhh yooooo..... somebody save me!! hmm, i like the tittle.. i soo wanna runaway from reality right now.. wishin someone would take me away from all this crap... its sooo bad.. my brain juice is totally drained out.. anyone out there??? take me with you!!! i wanna runaway... at the same time.... i sooo like wanna cry man.. haiz.... jia lat...

[ SOmEboDy SaVe MEeee..... GoT TiSsuE..? ]

m.C.

WeirD....

weirdest day today.. my heart is like skippin and stoppin a few times today.. everythin is goin really really wrong wrong..

so had tuition this mornin.. it was alright.. met up wif fah and sis in the afternoon.. den ate potato salad.. kinda like shared it with em.. and the rest is borinn..

its tough writin stuff on my blog.. i write stuff out and i'm like always prayin tat i hurt no one's feelin and also create misunderstandin... i dunno wad to do now...

i think i can't carry on.. gone...................

[ I HaTE MYsELF ]

m.C.

I Miss........... I Remember..........

i have no idea wad is goin on in my mind right now at this moment.. i soo wish time can stop right now and give me ample time to think.. i wish i could turn back time.. i wanna go back to the time when she was there.. the memory of her jus lingers in my mind.. the smile.. she had me.. even though it was jus a friendly hi and some normal questionin she somehow had grabbed my attention.. she did not have looks of a superstar but a heart that was made up of smiles that would never end..

she had a way around ppl who was feelin down and upset.. she help turned ppl like me that had a bad day to a day with laughter and joy again.. it was nice to have a stranger of some sort askin abt ur life with smiles and laughter.. it was as though she was like an angel that was send from up above to tell me that life isn't that bad after all.. or maybe is jus me thinkin too much or too highly abt her.. but i miss her.. i do.. right now.. its crazy cos i'm still unaware of the name she holds.. its been quite some time.. i can still remember the silly things i did jus to get a little conversation with her.. *smiles*

i'm still searchin for myself.. where is the me i knew last year.. i'm playin with fire now.. i'm pushin my luck.. i dunno why am i doin this.. care and love, hard to find and understand.. i'm expectin too much.. shoot me..

its great news that video production abt "eye mo" manage to clinch first in the TJC video competition.. its really great news.. i really miss the good times and the fun we had doin video productions.. it was solid fun.. fun that can never be replaced till now.. missin it loads also.. i can still remember the fun times i had with my crew.. fah, eugene and justin.. and also the ever funny "bird".. laughter could always be heard whenever we were thinkin abt the next scene.. i think the best one i enjoyed was the production on last yr's 3rd assembly programme.. it was a production i will never forget and a day i will always remember.. hope to be able to hit the camera's again real soon.. miss AV..

[ Hope U Like How ThinGs Are GoiN On BetWeen Us ]


m.C

FinALLy ITs OveR, AnD ITs ALL GooD....

ah ya.. dam.. somethin's wrong with my bloody net.. sounds stupid but this is my second time writin the same entry for today.. i wrote in the earlier part of the afternoon and the whole thing hang and.. Whamp!!.. the whole thing was gone.. now i'm rewritin again...

today is teacher's day.. so happy teacher's day..? i hope no teacher reads my blog man.. hmm, yesterday was a blast.. performance was good that's wad ppl told us.. each of us had ppl commentin on how we did yesterday.. but, i kinda screw up la with the off key problem for MAXaudios.. yeee, its the only mistake i made man.. this suck.. i could feel the jump in my throat when i sang that high part.. hahaha.. but, its all over now.. hmm, FLAB... the band flab was overall good.. some said that it was the best comparin it with all the previous reheasals.. so yeap, i'm happy that hard work kinda paid off.. i can still remember the time where the three of us from FLAB was sittin down at the canteen thinkin of wad song to change to.. hmm, i'm glad that the song picked was good.. Oasis - Don't Look Back In Anger.. =) i sang with my heart out for that song.. and it felt really good.. and performin in front of loads of ppl is really no joke.. i was shakin like crazy when standin on stage singin for MAXaudios.. gosh.. i can still remember comin to school with a tummy ache.. and once the performance was over, the tummy ache no more.. haha.. nervous was the culprit..

friends.... i really wanna thank them for givin the support to us.. the bands.. sis and syazwan were sittin at the front row takin pics and also givin the loudest cheer for us.. thanks.. and i heard from wilson that aunty dinie was cheerin and screamin like crazy for me.. hehe.. aunty dinie thanks for ur support.. sorry.. i never notice u showin the "rock on" hand sign.. comments i had from my friends were all good.. thank you very very much.. hehe.. "nut", thanks for ur support too? hehe.. see i never forget to thank you lehz.. btw, u did well tooo... hehe... and "nut" u really confused me over certain stuff, its crazy and i really hope tat u don blur me up anymore..

teachers.. hmm.. it seemed that they were quite shocked with the changed of lyrics we made for MAXaudios.. jia lat.. i hope tml will be alright... especially the thing "i wanna silent my teacher".. can't help it cos i couldn't find a suitable word.. hahaha.. so no choice.. hehe... glad that the hard work of changin the lyrics paid off.. phew, it really took quite a bit of time for me.. i also wanna thank sis for helpin me out with the changin of lyrics and i also wanna thank "Starbucks" for givin me the insipiration to do the change of lyrics thingy.. hahaha...

mum jus told me that we've gt chalet at pasir ris.. i'm soo nt ready.. this is bad.. hmm.. life is rather at ease now.. By the way.. the teacher's day performance pics are out already.. i've uploaded em.. its under teacher's day 05.. so u can go check em out or somethin.. tml is the last day of school.. holidays are all packed with revision and folio to finish up.. haiz.. stress..
its crazy, but i'm missin someone right now..haiz... who needs to know anyway...

[ Thanks For takin ur time off to come down and support me yesterday.. Thanks man.. u're still lookin jus as good as ever..hehe... i apologise for not being able to talk to you tat much.. anyway jus hope that i did not bore u or somethin.. anyway thanks, i really appreciate ur presence.. WoooHooooo.. ]


m.C