i'm back.. oh yeapp... back after a long time.. to me its a break from all that is happenin around me... well.. wad happened?.. it was me.. i chose to play with somethin i shouldn't have started.. and now its movin on.. and i have no idea how or wad to do in order to make things right..
i'm now kinda not even sure if wad i did was right.. but i'm soo scared.. scared to have things back as it is and also movin on.. cos there are soo many things i can see comin ahead of me, and its not goin to be any easier for me.. i'll try to write over here as much as possible.. write how i feel and all.. but, sometimes i dunno if its good anot to write too much.. cos its actually worryin to have someone understandin you even better than urself.. i dunno wad to do or say right now.. feel like goin back, at the same time feel like movin on cos its really painful the last time... but, i'm also not even sure if movin on is one of the right things to do.. cos i'm also scared.. i have ppl tellin me wad i should do.. thank u guys soo much for helpin out.. and to mimi thanks for whatever things u've done to help ease the load off me..
feel like cryin right now.. like jus tearin lor.. somehow i feel tat if this situation didn't even happen i wouldn't know anythin abt anyone.. like how they feel, say , do and all.. somehow i jus wonder why must it take someone to step in, in order to make things happen.. like.. i jus dunno how to put it.. its somethin like a puddle of water is calm but it takes a shake to get things movin.. tat is wad i think la.. i may be wrong.. i dunno.. i dun really know wad to write.. feel like talkin to jie.. hmmm.. cos i really dunno wad to do lehz.. jia lat laaaa...
ok.. so school has been okok lor.. there is an IT fair goin on at suntec.. yay.!! so been there on thurs wit nat, jannah and amir.. so yeapp.. laptops.. goody gd gd.. i wanna get a LAPTOP..!! its really crowded lor on the first day.. which was on a thurs.. it was okok lor.. and in the bus i help them take alot of pics.. cos nat brought her camera.. so i help her take loads of pics of her, jannah and amir.. so yeapp.. kinda had to wait for the bus to come to a stop in order to have less blur pics taken.. so ya lor.. den in the bus gt this few ppl.. dunno army or wad.. talkin crap den disturbin this gal.. hahahaha.. dam funny la.. but, cannot anyhow laugh laugh.. later kena beat.. dammit.. kakakaka...
so fri. which was yesterday head out wit kl to town.. jus go babe watchin.. and they had this dance competition goin on.. hahahhaaa.. its was pretty cool actually.. some hip hop stuff la.. so yea.. nt bad.. and each of us gt this free thing la.. some blink blink thing.. hahaha.. niceee.. so after tat head down to 85.. so it was jus me, kl , ashley and yong liang.. so few hor.. cos most of them weren't free.. so jus gather la.. anyway it was alright.. den saw cindy lor.. a while only la, den i head home.. cos i was scared i will not be able to take the bus home.. so anyway, i manage to get home safe and sound..
school.. now there is another two more new students.. one is a yoyo pro or somethin man.. damm, he plays yoyo like nothin la.. so dam good.. the other guy.. jus joined us on fri.. have no idea wad kinda person he is like.. so i'm yet to see.. and my class is gonna have a bbq pit??? whoa.. so fast hor.. OMG.. i dunno la.. and.. i haven been studyin.. damm.. hahhaha.. must study soon.. haiz.. life.. sooooo unpredictable..
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