RETURNED..

alright.. i'm back.. finally back to blog abt somethin.. right.. so wad hav i been doing??? cryin.. sufferin the depression of being lonely..!!! hahahaha.. gosh..

right.. so let me flash back to wadever i can recall.. ouh.. BON has a new song.. called "bliah".. must b wondering hw in the world u pronounce it? its BER~LIAH.. so yea.. got it? =)

ok.. met someone nice and her name is nadiah.. she is SEC 3.. she is like my penpal uh.. hahahaha.. ah yoo.. jia lat.. u ppl must b thinkin i must b cheating on some LIL gal uh.. hmmm.. well.. she is nt a LIL gal.. she is mature for her age.. and she is someone really nice.. cos right nw.. i dun think its gonna do me any gd to go back to my past and try to adjust things and cry over em.. right nw.. i wanna try something new.. know new ppl.. more new ppl.. do more crazy things.. hahaha.. and of course doin somethin nice in return too in appreciatin wad they've done.. and..... talkin abt nadiah.. its been really fun exchangin emails with her.. exchanging diff stories.. and she thought i was some guy with a bad attitude..! hahaha.. cool.. so yea, i'm talkin to her and somehow it helped me look at things from a different angle.. i've also heard cool stories from her..!! so its freakin awesome man..!! =)

now.. i've lost almost everythin.. my love.. no more gals in my life to sayang already..! no more hands to hold.. no more cuddles.. no more hugs.. no more sweet words of comfort.. this sucks man..! jus today i realise i miss holding hands with someone i love.. so yea.. ah yooo.. sucks lah.. i wanna get married..!! hahahha.. den dun hav to miss this thing.. yeeessh.!!

ouh.. val's b'day was on the 29th of march.. and and.. shark was dam cute uh.. hahahaha.. we were lepaking den he wanted us to sing together a b'day song as a present for her.. so... we did.. and we sounded pretty awesome.. and i really mean it.. An acappella grp.. hahaha.. den val on the other line heard us sing couldn't help but laugh.. cos it was really awesome.. so i couldn't help but ask her.. hw much would she give us over 10.. she replied 10/10..!! hahaha.. and i'm serious we sounded pretty awesome for a beginner's acappella grp..! woOoOoHoOooo..!!

so movin on.. eh, sorry uh.. the post for today is pretty all over the place.. cos i'm typin out wadever tat comes to my mind.. things tat i recall..

ok.. since there's nothin much i can remember.. i'll talk abt wad happen to my 29th of march..! hehe.. alright.. finally i got the clubbing thing settled already..!! WOoOoohOoOoO.. and finally i've been to a club.. yea, sounds stupid la.. but, I FINALLY GOT INTO MOS man.. got free tickets.. and there was a previous chance but i didn't go.. cos was busy.. but, this time.. i went.. and it was with KL, SEE HENG, YONG LIANG, GIM WEI, GIM WEI's COUSIN, GILDA?, WEI FENG, TECK WUN, and most of the others were KL's friends.. and wei feng gt the lobang for free tickets.. and it was Bloody alot lah.. cos after we entered they still had 10 over more free tickets. hahaha.. WTF.. so this was cool because i had free entry... and the drinks were cheap.. can see the ticket above.. 1 for 1.. so we bought two jugs of dunno wad coke for the price of one.. mixture of alcohol and coke.. and bloody shaait.. i gave him $50, i took the drinks den i forgot to take the change.. den lucky i went back and ask... den the dude say.. " sorry bro gt alot of ppl den forgot." hahaha.. cool cool.. ppl scared of me..!! hahahaa..!! let me action uh a lil bit.. very seldom ppl scared of me uh.. hahaahaha.. and somemore in a place like this man..!! den lucky i took back cos it can help me pay off taxi fair man.. hahahaa..

den movin on.. it was kinda scary at first.. cos the crowd was really packed den ppl there look fierce man..! hahaha. like anytime can fight.. but, no worries.. it still turned out alright.. hahaha.. den den.. at first was kinda boring.. cos nobody DANCED.. i mean in the grp.. the dance floor was freakin crowded cannot move in.. so had to dance where u standing.. yea, i knw sounds kinda stupid but no choice.. hahaha.. den i jus dance lor..!! woOoOoOo.. marcus is dancin man..! hahaha.. den slowly la some of us began to dance.. and i tell u uh.. teck wun had a chance man.. cos there was a table full of gals near us.. den they were dancing like NUTS man.. seriously.. den i think one of em kinda gt close to teck wun.. but, he nvr see.. den when he started dancin she moved away liao.. like, wasted laaaa.. hahahaha. could hav seen somethin man..

ouh, talkin abt seeing.. u can see ppl grinding one another..hahaha.. but, there was one which really stood out.. this gal and her BF.. ah yooo.. she was grinding on him but, it didn't look like grinding but it look more like dry humpin or she was tryin to get him sexually aroused.. hahaha.. like wad the F***.. hahaha.. dam disgustin uh.. hahahaa.. buay tahan.. and of cos there were some which can make u feel dam envious cos u wished u had a partner too..! hahahaa.. my my.. i too had my chance uh.. cos this gal and i exchanged glances a few times while dancing.. but, better not.. hehe.. cos i GOOD BOY.. hahahaha.. better stick to tat image.. maybe nxt time? hahahaha..

so.. we went out.. and i realise the amount of malays is ALOT.. way alot i tell u.. but, all fierce uh. gt tatoos.. hahaha.. den.. now.. this is the STORY OF THE DAY.. we went out.. to grab a bite..n wilson and wei feng bought beer.. and they had quite a bit of leftovers.. den KL and i help finished up.. and.. after drinkin.. reaction set in.. i GOT GIDDY uh.. den cannot tahan.. go do silly stuff.. sing den dance.. hahaha..!! den after tat i realise.. my head dam freakin LIGHT.. feels like u're flyin or somethin.. hahahaha.. nvm.. it was one bloody feeling tat i seldom get.. but, it was freakin awesome man.. hahahaa.. den while on the way back.. we saw somethin..

this two ladies comin out of the cab.. den i like notice la.. as usual.. den i tab wei feng den told him to see.. den at the moment both he and i looked at them.. the "ladies" weren't ladies.. they were GAYs.. sexual changed kinda gays.. hahaha.. den i also stare la.. but, i looked away.. hahaha.. but, i hav to say.. the slim one didn't look like a guy at ALL.. kk.. there were both.. one slim and one fat.. the fatter one can tell tat she is a guy or the guy is a she...so yea.. den the fat one notice wei feng lookin at her.. hahaa.. den "she" walked slightly closer to us den she looked at wei feng and say " LENG ZAI " and she still continue to look at him when she say tat.. hahahaa.. even when she was walkin another direction she was still lookin at him den at the same time she was gigglin with her fren.. hahaha.. must be wonderin wad does the meanin "leng zai" mean?? at first i thought it was some THAI word.. den i gt to knw from gim wei's cousin tat its cantonese which means handsome boy.. hahahaa.. den we keep on disturbin wei feng.. hahaa.. den he like pushed the blame to me.. say the ah gua called me and not called him.. all of us saw uh.. saw tat the ah gua called him leng zai.. ahahaha..!! so too bad BOY..!! WooOhOoOo..!!!

den went back in with the light headed feeling.. dance again..!! and this time.. dance even more crazy.. more than jus nw.. and it really felt gd.. and seriously to b really honest with u ppl.. if u dun dance when u go clubbin den u're gonna find it really boring.. cos the main thing there is to dance.. and HAVE FUN..!! =) and wad i liked was when they played music i reconise i'll sing.. and ppl will sing too..!! like nelly's ride with me i think.. woOOoO.. the DJ tone dwn the music to hear the responce from the crowd.. hahaha.. nice.. MUST BE THE MONEY..!! hahahaha..

and overall.. i guessed i enjoyed myself.. and.. i think next time must drink more.. get really HIGH den u'll totally enjoy man..!! hahahaa.. and yea.. my mum knew abt me headin there and drinkin..hahahaha.. but, hey.. i dun smoke.. and i still nvr smoke till nw.. nt a single PUFF man.. hahahaha.. even tho there r times when i jus really feel like takin one.. hahahaa.. and not forgetting.. FREE ENTRY.. so i'll only go if free entry lahz. hahahaa... yessa..!!! oh ya.. i spend only $13 for MOS.. drinks only.. cab was $9 shared with friends.. so yea.. nt so bad la.. =)

alright.. today my hse gt cut off for electricity.. but, i still slept till 2 pm.. hahaha. lucky it wasn't tat hot.. there was still wind blowin into my room.. den.. i manage to finish my song.. finally.. hahaha.. this is freakin awesome man.. computer wasn't available so all i had to entertain myself was the guitar.. and i finished it up.. hahahah.. yata..!! so nw.. need ppl to take a listen.. heeeeee...

oh.. cherlie found a psp.. and dam.. it has a 2gb card in it.. she has been tryin to get me out of the hse.. but, i can't.. been busy.. always havin things goin on the day after next.. den she jus gt me at the wrong time.. get me when i'm busy.. hehe.. SORRY Cherlie..!!

and.. most of the ppl tell me.. eh, marcus.. i think uh.. in ur life u're meant to become ppl's life raft.. like, if ppl need u when they use u.. den if they find their paradise they chuck u one side.. hahhaa.. gosh.. den jus thinkin back.. maybe uh.. so yea.. if i'm meant to b like tat.. den.. GOT TO LIVE WITH IT..!! OoOooOo. this sucks man..

so right nw.. all i can do is pray and hope for somethin man.. or maybe it has already arrived..?

[ If ur heart is gonna b broken by soo many others u're gonna meet? den i dun see y the chance for me doesn't stand.. me = 1.. others = ???? ]

m.C.

Hair In Short...

ok.. jus gt a hair cut.. hahaha.. TA DAH..!! see the retarted look i have.. yea, tats me wit my new hair cut.. WOoOooOo.. hahaha.. so headed dwn to tampines stadium to take a look at the old damai sec.. YEaaaaA.... things.. well.. let me see... hahahaha..

first.. juniors i've met.. ALL TALLER NOW and more MATURE looking.. and the teachers.. the same.. nt much of a diff.. new faces of new teachers is there.. girls.. wow.. all diff looking.. better looking infact.. like more mature.. hahaha.. geee.. i wonder if i look more mature nw.. AHhaHAhahahahaha.. how ppl? do i look mature comparing to the last time???

kk.. anyway.. its jus reminds me.. i was havin my hair cut.. there were cds being played la.. but, its songs sung by another person.. like real songs, fake artists.. something like tat.. and i finally understood the meaning of feelings in the song.. there wasn't any feelings in the song.. its like, they sung for the sake of singing.. so yea.. finally i understand.. but, i DUNNO HOW TO SING WITH FEELINGS YET..!!! AhHH~hH~hH~HhH`hhHh..

next.. y dun ppl believe tat i'm married..??? hahaha.. i tried to trick mrs chen n miss carol tat i'm married uh.. at first mrs chen believe.. den i dunno leh hw come she dun believe.. i dunno laaa.. den say i no money hw to hav kids.?? den i say "my face dun look like the kind who will hav short gun marriage??" she say.. "no.. she knw my personality.." hahaha.. wadda hell.. same reason for miss carol.. and shaait.. miss carol bully me like F***.. she wouldn't let me off cos she wants me to run in her position.. she told me the teacher abandon the class and tat she has to run.. so i had to do her a favour to run for her.. hahaha.. and i was like constantly tryin to RUN away from her... she kept holding on to my tee.. damm.. and she make a few phone calls jus to get me in.. say i'm runnin for her.. under alumni (spelling error) or somethin den... in the end.. i didn't hav to run.. cos it was only for the teachers or the parent support grp.. hahaha.. so i told miss carol.. I GIVE U MY SUPPORT..!! JIA YOU..!! hahahahaa.. in d end.. i escaped with a WIDE smile on my face.. jkakakakaka..!

kk.. den took pics with diyana.. cos she ask me hor.. better take.. or else i will b hit with KARMA.. its a better to take thingy la hor.. hahahaha.. so took lor..

den met fah after tat.. he was late uh.. den lepak for a while.. den was joined with Xiao jia and zakiah.. cos both of em were gonna visit cindy also.. for certain reasons uh.. dun wanna blog it.. den fah and fin jus took the same bus with us.. den yeapp.. met with gim wei and see heng after tat.. den visit cindy.. den home lor.. 5 goes to bedok res view and damai sec..!! direct bus man..!! gosh i jus can't help but remember the TOOK THE WRONG BUS INCIDENT.. shait.. and i guess tats abt all ba.. oh.. and its cool callin zakiah beyonce man..!! ahhaahaha.. YATA..!!

ok.. jus to let u guys knw..i'm nt sure if i did talk abt it.. there is a corner nw.. its all art work pieces by this two lovely ladies.. beyonce and dinie.. yea.. jus to help promote a lil for em.. so doo go chk it out.. i think its labelled as ART OF ENVY.. its located at the right side.. the link boxes.. so feel free to take a look.. and they r being graded.. so its like an assignment tat they've gt to post their art pieces and elaborate abt em i think.. i dunno hw it is being graded but jus take a look la hor.. =)

kk... i think tats abt all.. till den..


[ WeyyY... update ur blog.. ]


m.C.

My B'day..!

well happy b'day to me uh.. yata..!!

the whole day totally started really awesome.. ppl wishin me happy b'day.. ppl whom i least expect to sms me.. wah.. shiok man the feeling.. jus gives u the constant smiles.. hahahaha.!!
didn't really celebrate.. this yr was a diff thing.. no candles.. no cake.. no family gathering.. jus with friends.. hahaha.. and yea.. its pretty awesome actually.. =)

and.. i dun even knw to call this a b'day anot.. hahaha.. cos its jus like any other day.. talk to ppl as per normal.. some dunno abt my b'day bt jus talk as per normal.. hahahaha... and yea.. its pretty alright lahz.. and i gt a headline tee with a dvd.. woOoOooo.. ladder 49 is the movie.. they didn't really knw wad to get me.. so i went to choose lor... hahahahaha.. i likeeeeee... its nice la.. i like the presents.. yayayaya..!!!

den den.. on the way to twn.. this lady approach me.. she told me.. " we're a model agency lookin for handsome guys.." den she wanted to pass me her card.. i was like.. HUH???? u sure u gt the right guy???? den i pointed to khim leng and see heng and say.. " there handsome boys and pretty gals" den she jus look over the other direction and i took tat opportunity to walk off.. den KL and SH also walk off.. wahh.. i tell u.. i think she quite piss uh.. hahaaha.. cos she jus stand there in blank space.. den i told her sorry uh.. hahaha.. kk.. i like dam busted.. but, i mean.. i knw where i stand la.. u askin me??? sharks.. its really off link man.. serious talking.. its like out of desperation or somethin.. oh well.. nvm.. hahahahahaa..!! also kinda make me a lil head big uh.. hahahahahaa.. pretty nice to start off the day actually..

den went window shoppin.. after buyin the tee.. ate subway.. gosh.. People..! sweet onion sauce and honey mustard goes well and its tastes HEAVENLY..!!! hahahhaa.. sharks.. SH knew abt the combination earlier than me.. AhHHh`h`hh`h`.. its his recommendation actually.. hahahaha.. niceee..

and i jus gt to knw.. phyu phyu is in the TAF programme.. OMG.. hahahaha.. wadda hell.. and i'll b headin to damai's sports day tml.. so yea.. talk to the juniors.. and yea.. see hw it goes.. yata..!!
and i'm in love with blinks old songs. nice.. hahahaha..

i think tats abt all...

[ If only the kiss wasn't sms.. sure dam SHIOK...! =) ]


m.C. --> B'day Happiness..!

HeLLo HoLi's....

Alright.. the exams are over and the holidays are here.. and jus to top things up i've gt my attachment starting on the 16 of april instead of 19 march..!! yata..! so where shld i start first.. this week has been one hella week.. let me see.. lets head back to monday..

so monday.. totally no confident in my papers.. zero confidence.. and i'm nt even sure if i'm able to pass anot.. AhHH~hH~h~Hh.. but like wad ppl would say.. wad is over is over already la hor.. so.. FORGET IT...

tues.. went to the zoo as a band.. yeapp.. its been a while since i head dwn to the zoo.. and seeing all the parents with their little ones make me feel like havin a kid of my own or somethin.. it would b so awesome if i were to b tellin him wad's tat animal la.. bla bla bla.. holdin his hand.. or even carryin him.. wah.. i tell u.. the feeling.. SHIOK MAN.. ok, i think i'm kinda goin off course.. the zoo.. was fine.. but, with shark around things were even BETTER.. hahaha.. he was the entertainer.. and it was really funny uh.. the things he does.. so manja.. hahaha. no wonder girls like.. hahaha.. like a lil kid.. u can see one of the pics.. him with his sadden look with the animals... hahhaha.. gosh.. and he was sooo excited the day be4 the trip, tat night be he called us to tell us nt to stay up or we wouldn't b able to wake up the next day.. in the mornin, he gave all of us each a morning call arnd 7 plus and ask us to go bathe.. Ah YoOoOoO.. hahahaha... oh well.. i was woken up by him.. and i was a lil pissed uh.. i was dreamin.. a dream i nvr thought i dreamt.. hahahaha.. den he call.. wah kao.. den GONE.. WAH.. haiz.. nvm.. over liao.. yea.. the zoo.. fun.. pics.. nice.. video.. SHIOK UH..!! hahahaa..

wed.. chalet.. mum booked it.. but be4 tat i met up with mimi and head to twn with her.. jus walk arnd.. den makan.. den go off lor.. nothin much.. jus a catch up.. booked in the chalet pretty late.. bro had to do his work.. head to macafe.. bro spilled the drink.. and i felt bad uh.. cos its the second time i drink has spilled uh.. the first time was with zal and the rest.. and i told hidayah sorry.. so yea.. so pai sey uh, twice drinks spilled in my presence.. oh oh oh, den this gal came up to me and ask.. " U're the one right??" i was like "huh?? Who??" den she say... " amira" i was like huh?? who the hell is tat??? na ni??? hahahaha.. den she reminded me the time when i was with adam, zal, mirza, bob, salih.. they went to disturb this gal called amira and gt her number.. and the gal tat spoke to me was her cousin.. Ah yooo.. i can't remember lahz.. and i nvr talk to tat amira la.. but, ever spoke. once when we made a fool of ourselves... hahaha. adam is the one who is communicating with her till nw.. nt me.. tats abt all..

thurs.. morin at subway.. and its mark hoppus b'day man.. COOL.. hahaha.. same zodiac sign as mine.. and its really AWESOME cause i totally respect him.. hahahaa... WHOOoOo... kk.. den met up wit the band again.. buy bbq stuff.. den lepak at the beach.. shark created fire with coconut husks.. cOoL.. hahaha.. den met my parents.. and there is another new music in my mind.. simple song.. hahahhaa.. abt being there... nothin much also.. tats abt all..

fri.. bbq.. well, i can't really say much.. because there was a sense of awkardness in the air, and tats wad i think.. but, laughters were nvr forgotton.. there were still laughters.. loads of em.. shark was still the funny one.. and he asked for a hug from all of us.. hahahahaa.. but nobody wanna giv.. and i giv lor.. i alright with tat lahz, as long as i can make someone feel better.. why not.. ppl i invited.. nvr turn up.. hahaha.. hw lucky.. kena put aeroplane.. BEST.. i dunno la.. to me it was all ok la.. but, i like bon's new song.. its nice.. its called BLIAH.. hahaha.. its pronounce as BER-LIAR.. hahaha.. somethin like tat.. hahahaha.. and its nice.. and i tell u, when he sung it to me.. i was like.. WOOW.. if i were to be a girl.. i'm sure to melt..! hahaha.. dam nice.. hazewan.. he was the man of the night or mornin.. gosh... he and his spontanous acts.. FUNNY.! can really make u laugh.. and jus addin bon's and izz's laughters u jus can't help but laugh.. very contagious uh their laughters.. hahahaa.. nice.... and tats abt all ba.. dose cooking was NICE.. his fried rice.. wOoOOoO.. shiok i tell u.. hahahaha.. the whole night was eating and eating and eating and playin the guitars.. hahaha.. and spontanous singing.. i likeeee.. i dunno hw to explain uh.. its jus simple fun.. =)

so.. i think tats abt all for the coverage of wadever.. and i also wan HUG.. but, i'm picky.. hahahhaa.. oh well.. hahahaha.. nvm..

i'm lazy.. this sucks.. bleeeahciness....!!!

[ eh, i gt to meet up wit u soon uh.. =) ]

m.C.

KaRMa....

jus recalled yesterday.. being happy and overjoyed because being single was gd.. laughed at a fren for being attached.. cos she was attached and she had alot of restrictions from her BF.. so i was laughin at her.. tellin her how free i was.. tat i can go out with anyone i one without havin any worries.. well.. things jus had to take a turn today.. a really big switch..

i was jus readin through friendster.. i saw somethin.. and the next thing i knew.. my heart beat stopped.. my mind was jus blank.. and its like u were super upset.. why this why tat.. but at the same time i was thinkin.. was there anythin i didn't know more abt? is her feelings real? and i realise.. i was on a doubt.. i'm back to the same old city.. same old rules.. same old feelings.. everythin.. all the same again.. N the old feeling of happiness is GREAT.. and the old feeling of being upset jus sucks.. i left her.. twice.. now.. she has always been arnd.. and me.. takin her for all the grants in the world.. but, how? how do u prove someone somethin? but, at the same time. i was thinkin.. so wad if u had her? how would life be like? i couldn't see anythin.. the vision jus wasn't there.. i wanna b with her.. but, i'm scared.. i'm scared to give my all again..

i'm still not ok... still hurt by the past left by someone.. i wan tat feeling of hurt and fear to disappear... but how?? this is a F***ed up situation.. cut and left to bleed.. i was wrong tat i was able to heal..

i wanna move on.. i wanna love again.. but, its jus soo hard.. i can't.. fear.. how to trust..?

Trust... LOST...

[ i decided to start with you first.. but, i dun think its gonna b possible.. after all the damage i've done.. ]

m.C.

Met up.. After a year....

its been almost a yr since i last saw the ppl who made the biggest impression in my sec sch life.. and yeapp.. we met up yesterday.. and it was kinda wonderful to be able to see everybody again.. hahhaaha.. well, i was kinda hopin for some drama uh.. but, DUN HAVE.. we only had unessary ones.. well.. overall it was ok la.. thanks to the poker cards and also the game VAL taught.. all came to fun actually.. to me.. ya..

and to top things off.. gosh.. i jus followed mimi to macafe.. den saw liyana's fren uh.. CHIO.!! dunno hw to describe uh.. but, yea.. she's pretty.. even mimi thought so too lor.. hahaha.. den most of the guys had to go off.. all of us left in cabs.. and fin suggested we go look for jannah in twn.. den none of the guys could go along wit him.. only me.. cos i wanted to hang out late.. so.... might as well.. reached home 10 plus pm.. bathed changed and head out again.. i wasn't tat reluctant abt headin out at this hr jus wit fin.. but, there were loads of things to catch up with.. cos it had been a yr since we last spoke and catch up.. i had to find out abt certain things.. wad went wrong on the other side when i left.. i always had this guilty feeling kept within me.. i had to clear it up.. so we talked.. and yea.. FIN had a GF for 3 months.. and SHE WAS HOT.. she was someone all of us didn't knw.. and tats really awesome.. cos fin lost his first KISS already.. and..... well.. hahahaha.. anyway, i'm really happy tat it happened to him.. hehe..

so anyway.. i am really happy to b part of somethin new now.. he is tryin to chase someone nw.. and i wanna b part of it.. cos i KPO la.. love stories.. i jus LOVE EM..!! hahahaha.. especially the happy endings.. i wanna see happy endings.. it was unfortunate tat jannah couldn't join us uh.. cos she had to catch her company cab.. so can't lepak.. well, there is always nxt time.. it was also our fault cos we didn't tell her.. so ya lor.. hahahaha.. but, i'm alright.. i did my catchin up.. and i reached home arnd 4 am.. night rider has been a real big rescue for me.. save money.. and i still reach home.. YATA..!! hahahhaa.. and twn is indeed kinda happenin arnd in the mornin.. saw this guy who climbed onto somethin with a beer in his hand shoutin " I've got the biggest dick" hahaha.. he shld try shoutin like this at changi.. i think it'll do him alot of good.. hahahaha..

and.. spoke to dinie.. and she has is diff nw.. she is.... more focus and hardworkin.. hahahaha.. GOD.. dinie.. sharks... wait uh.. let me see if i can locate her blog.. tada.. found it.. ---> DINIE's WORK SPACE jus click on it.. and u can see her work pieces and yea.. its cool tat she is really doin somethin nw.. hahahaha..

kk.. nxt.. project.. sucks.. i'm havin the biggest prb.. and i'm really feeling dam stressed up.. i wanna smile.. but..... i dunno who to look for to smile.... this is bad man.. i got no more sunshine.. alamak.. i feel lonely man.. i wanna be love.. maybe for nw i'm jus feeling this way.. oh well.. jus hope it'll subside.. or maybe someone take me away again..!!

ah yaaaa.. wadever it is.. i wanna get the project over and done with la.. i think its tat which is causin all this pain in the butt.. F****.. this is a F*** F*** situation.. bOooOoo..!!


[ i want you..... hahahaha.. yea....... i want you..!! where you??? =( ]



m.C.

I mAde It..

well.. i made it for the public speakin finals.. gt through the semi-finals today.. didn't wanna tell many ppl abt it.. cos i scared i fail uh.. but, i made it.. YATA..!!!!

jus viewed through certain things.. one of my fren told me somethin.. its like if one has many frens of the opposite sex it makes it even harder for a person to settle dwn.. cos too many choices.. and some maybe really fantastic but u're nt sure.. hmmm.. den it gt me thinkin.. am i like that..? hahaha.. nah...

so yeapp.. nothin much for this entry.. i jus hope tat.. things will get sorted out for me real soon... THIS IS GETTING HARDER..

i wanna remember this day.. PUBLIC SPEAKING.. I MADE IT.. =)


[ didn't tell u abt it tho.. sorry.. but, i made it to the finals..!!! =) ]


m.C.