alright.. today.. ok.. i think i wanna talk abt friday.. friday was my schools talent time and i was the mc.. so i had received comments that i was like, erm sacarstic { Hope no spellin Error }.. well seriously i am really sorry for bein like that.. i dunno whether i crossed the line anot on that day but.. i can seriously tell you that it was seriously no joke bein a host or an mc.. is like i've got to find some crap to talk about and i was suppose to drag time plus i got no script on that day.. haiz.. i thought i'll be able to handle it.. but too bad.. i think i failed.. the reason for me not bein able to talk was becoz i was very afraid of the response i might get from the audience.. so in a way i was scared.. my hands were shakin when i was up there.. i was really nervous.. but never mind at least i know wad is like now.. one word to describe " tough"..
Next.. after the talent time celebration i had my chinese mock exam.. its really tough.. i have no idea how i'll be able to make it through.. haiz.. stress.. why.. will i be able to find some miracle to this crappy weakness of mine?? wad is goin to happen next?? i've really got to get my study mood back or else i am really goin to screw up very badly.. TIME....
after that i made a trip down to my friends birthday bbq.. it was okok la i would say.. the only thing i enjoyed when i was there was disturbin the birthday boy.. "rubber" was the phrase that night.. haha.. but it was fun la.. but there is somethin i missed most that night.. not the girls but.. the coffee night that i always had with ashley, khim leng and michelle... whenever we had that night out i will somehow always feel very relieved when i set my foot back home.. like all my troubles are left or kept somewhere else.. its a really nice feelin.. and a kinda expensive one i would say.. haha...
SAT.. which is 15 mins jus now.. life was simple.. never go out.. jus bought cable for my computer.. now she is sittin at the top.. 2 lights at home are spoiled got to get new ones tml.. sis is angry with me for not tellin her stuff.. well.. i'm really sorry but i have my reasons for doin this.. is not that i don trust her but is jus that i feel that she is not gonna be able to handle it when i tell her.. maybe to me she is jus not ready yet.. btw i have no other new girlfriends yet... i will tell you the same reason why i've got no new ladies in my life yet cos , I'm nothin good...
i can see that everybody has their own things to worry abt in their own life.. like everybody has their own really own problems... sometimes i jus wished i could help but jus afraid that i might get rejected for tryin to help or maybe i might be even called busybody... so better not help?? i dunno.. very complicated..
[ His Feelings Are Blurred.. He Is Confused... Wads Next??? ]
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