today.. it was overall kind of an emotional day for me.. its a pure test of my heart and the understandin of why ppl feel a certain way to certain things they have in their life.. i can say tat each time i have a lesson of PIE (some moral education thing) i would always see an ans to my problems i'm encounterin in life.. like some ans period or somethin..cos right now.. there are loads of things goin on in my life tat require a lot of heart shakes.. yeaapp, shakes like someone grabbin ur heart or somethin..
had my practical test today.. made a mistake.. didn't really look at the words printed on the motherboard then kinda plug in the wrong pin.. i think there is some deduction of marks or somethin.. so lunch was as usual wit KL and qing jie.. after tat headed to the stadium to sit.. now its kinda a routine to go there to sit after lunch or somethin.. but, i do have to admit somethin.. they do have good views over there.. views of the environment.. and den it started to rain, den took cammy out and took a few shots.. hehe.. ok.. maybe i'll upload em or somethin.. den u guys can go check it out.. den see for urself if the view is nice anot..
so after tat all of us headed for PIE lessons after that.. KL had his own PIE lesson.. so today my PIE teacher decided to make us angry by provokin us or somethin.. she put up an act or somethin.. and durin this act it really made me learn alot abt the behaviour and thoughts of wad ppl go through.. and its seriously interestin.. i realise tat my classmates are all goody goody kind.. nt many or i think none likes to rebel to certain things.. ok, anyway her trick was somethin like callin us nothin.. like sayin tat we are nothin la.. blablabla.. but, i do have to tell u tat hearin her say like tat kinda made me feel shaky and a lil hurt and also at the same time angry.. cos i do kinda look up to her in a way.. anyway, i kinda suspect la she was carryin out this fake thing cos it was somehow related to wad we were doin.. way before tat we were all asked to draw or somethin den two of my classmates had to give negative comments abt the drawings.. so it was when she started to say we're nothin.. oh well.. so now i kinda know la, how it feels like if someone u look up to soo much turns ur back on u.. its hurts real bad.. serious..
den after tat, the teacher gt kinda pissed wit us for teasin a classmate of ours.. i can't really say much over here ba.. but i can say tat with low self esteem it really makes things worryin.. and tat a praise from someone can really do wonders.. today my eyes are like often filled up wit tears... cos durin dinner, i kinda discussed wit her abt wad i did today.. and she told me stories abt students being unconfident.. but, there was somethin i had to agree.. family is the most impt source of cushion in out lifes.. cos they are the ones tat keep us movin in life.. they are the ones where the praise sometimes means the most.. i guess, family really is the ones tat keep u movin in life.. cos they are the ones who know u best..
maybe i'll tell u the story abt the kid tat died of no praise.. story was from my mum.. she told me, and its also true.. this kid, nine yrs old.. only kid, and dad abuses him.. hits him, and makes him shove the snow outside his house.. his mum, cannot help him cos she is sick and sometimes can't protect him much when his dad hits him.. sometimes, he jus wanna join the kids playin in the snow.. when the kids was makin a snowman, he wanted to come in by puttin some decorative objects on it.. but the kids told him to get lost or somethin.. this boy was a quiet boy.. no one spoke to him in school, it seemed as though he had no friends.. this boy had a diary.. he writes all his daily events in the diary of his.. all his sad happenins would always go there.. den it was one fine day when everythin ended.. he was on the bus, the kids were as normal all noisy onboard the bus, but he.. he was all quiet sittin at one side of the bus..den he gt up, told the bus driver to stop the bus.. the driver wasn't really sure wad the kid wanted to do.. the kid gt down and jus collapsed.. the kid died.. and when the body was taken back for an autopsy the doctors could nt find the reason y he died.. everythin was fine.. so the police investigated.. and read through his diary.. they read this day were he wrote abt the best teacher in the world.. so the police went to the school and looked for the teacher.. they asked of the teacher knew this boy, and he say no.. he doesn't know the boy at all.. the boy wasn't in his class.. but after tat he remembered somethin.. he did relief this class for one period.. and this boy was strugglin readin his notes, so the teacher approached him and asked him if he needed help.. and the teacher helped him.. and with such a simple help the teacher gave the boy was soo touched tat he made tat teacher the best teacher in the world.. but, wad really made me sad the most is because the boy died of no love.. and it seemed tat his heart came to a stop and tat was y he passed away.. and so u see, wit jus one single praise and a lil help u give to someone can really mean a lot to them.. its the lil things u do tat makes a difference in their lifes..
i say family is impt is because.. if u get all upset wit the things outside, u know tat there will always be ur family to shower u wit love and care.. so.. overall i have learned somethin ba.. its all related wit love.. and i also learned abt low and high self esteem.. and i now too know who is and whose nt.. cos of the things they do.. jus learned today... hmmm..
Don put ur emotions onto other's weaknesses..
[ I guess i doo too know more abt u now.. cos there are situations similiar to urs tat was being talked also.. maybe similiar to wad u and i are goin through now.. or maybe more.. =) ]
m.C.