2nd WeekLy UpdaTe...

my my my.. so hari raya has arrived.. and i'm nt havin any celebration this yr.. its been a while actually.. last time we used to gather at gandpa's (dad's side) to celebrate.. but, dun think its gonna happen.. cos all of us r busy and its been quite sometime since my grandpa pass on wit his life.. so.. yea.. tats abt all i guess..

monday... skipped the rest of the lesson after 12.. cos.. malay studs weren't in and we were thinkin tat we would make it easier for the teacher if we didn't attend lesson... so.. we did.. we skipped and i think only 3 or 4 ppl turned up for her lesson.. and now..... we've gt make up class.. together.. see... so much class spirit and bondin among us.. isn't tat jus sooo sweet..!! hahahaa.. den after tat head to T.M. together wit the chi gang in my class.. well.. it was ok.. and i think money is a real impt thing if wanna go out wit em.. cos i've gt to eat EX stuff.. i dunno.. its expensive and tats tat.. stayed home.. nothin else...

tues.. holiday.. hari raya.. made a few wishes to my frens.. didn't go out.. stayed home i think.. i can't really recall man.. sharkssss...

wed.. sch.. no malay studs.. BORING....

thurs... sch.. gt... BON came.. and adam and mirza and azman and dul.. so.. COOL.. alright la.. den i think we lepak a while in sch.. den headed home.. oh ya.. den met cherlie.. chit chat wika wack.. so ya.. but, cool lo.. hhahahahaaa..

fri.. met cindy in the mornin.. got caught by my father.. n he thought she was my GF.. JAM.. COOL.. found new place.. its dead awesome smackin shiok.. i dunno.. but, jus awesome.. instruments were gd.. but, kinda ran off key a few times.. cos i guess i had not enough sleep or somethin.. haiz.. siaaaan laaaaa.. runnin off key is really disgusting man.. yikesss..!! den after tat bugis, den changi.. tats abt all la.. nothin..

sat.. met the usuals at bucks.. den chill.. so ya. it was at simei..

sun.. meet parkway wit the usuals.. den meet up wit fah,syazwan, mimi's sch frens at mimi's hse for dinner..!! whoaaa.. but, ya.. den chilled at mac wit fah and syazwan.. so it was great.. den, nw fah and hanah r back.. triple awesomeness..!!! hahahaa.. gd gd gd..

so tats abt all 4 the week... i'm missin my fav loads.. but..... i'm scared..

[ How Are You... i saw u.. couldn't call u.. cos i was at the 4th floor and u were at the first.. cool hor, still can spot u.. u were wearin this white colour hair clip? tats hw u tie ur hair i guess.. miss u loads... my hp rosak..!!! u gt msg me? eh, ur hp back yet? ]


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A WeeKLy UpdaTe...

okaay.. sch has officially started.. first day of sch was alright.. it was kinda nice to see all my frens again and also to walk through the haze in the early mornin.. wow.. isn't it nice.. ok.. enough of tat crap.. it was all ok la..

monday... nothin happen..

tues.. ended early.. den lepak, play guitar wit band.. den head home..

wed.. nw.. tat was one hella night.. cos Bon wanted to go get the sound card.. so me and bob accompany him to sim lim and find for the soundcard.. and.. we got it.. tat wasn't the real impt thing.. they had to break fast.. and.. i.. was also hella hungry.. so we were like walkin here and there lookin for makan places.. and during tat moment i jus got to knw tat they have to actually break fast on the spot and are only allowed 15 mins grace.. and somehow tat night felt like a mission to find for a makan place where there was seats available.. but, dun hav.. in the end.. we ended up at macdonalds.. hahahaa.. and we were really walkin round and round bugis... it was jus simply crazy.. hahaha.. i wanted to take em to this halal place la.. den full .. den walked to raffles hospital.. also full.. den in the end walk to mac at bugis street tat area.. den gt space.. den tat was when WE broke fast.. hahahhaaa.. wadda hell am i talkin abt.. kk.. tat was abt all ba..

thurs.. i gt SABOed.. yeapp.. i was thirsty.. and i got myself a drink la.. i mean,i asked permission from my malay mates and they were cool wit me drinkin.. so.. i buy and drink lo.. den while waitin for the lift.. alot of ppl were there.. and i think practically all the ppl there waiting for the lift were all malays.. and den.. they disturb me.. they gave me a malay name.. and talked to me in malay.. and at the same time qn me in malay hw come i nvr fast.. i was like.. "HANG TIME" i was soo dumbfounded laaaaa.. cos i didn't knw wad to ans em.. and when they say tat i was drinkin.. and nvm, ppl all started to look at me.. wadda hell man..!! hahahaaa.. den , i jus quietly walk out of the lift area and went to the techinical block to take lift.. at the same time, they followed me and still talkin to me in malay.. hahahaa.. kena busted man.. darn..

after tat.. went to jammin studio wit band mates and the chinese grp.. cos they wanted to learn hw to jam.. bon and bob taught em.. and i sat outside doin my own stuff.. cos if i were to b inside it will cost 1 dollar more and also it'll b soo cramp la.. pointless.. soo.. i sat outside and waited.. hahahaa.. den after tat shark came.. and AVIAN 64 jammed together.. it was SOLID man.. the vibes of the music BON created was SOLID.. like, it was indeed like wad they say.. a FLY song.. a song tat gets u high and makes u feel like flyin.. hehe.. i loved it alot.. hopefully can get it recorded soon.. maybe after hari raya or somethin.. yeeaaaaaaa....

den.. after tat.. head home.. change and all.. head out again to meet the usuals.. and yea, it was usual.. nothin much.. cs and home.. yeapp, tats abt all..

fri.. created new music video.. and took more pics wit the malay studs.. ahahahaa.. and the video is OUT.. i post it on myspace.. hanah says i put on weight.. hmmm, my belt is at its last buckle already.. last time second last button.. nw last last one.. soooo.. yaaaa.. hahaha.. maybe cannot see uh.. must b my clothes.. hahahaa.. nvm.... den met the usuals at night.. cs.. nothin much.. as usual..

kk.. so today.. didn't join the usuals cos i decided to follow my mum.. so headed to airport to look for makan places we haven tried be4.. but, none suited my mum's taste for the day.. so ended up at fish&co... hehe.. ppl workin there nice to see.. but, service wasn't up to standard.. tats wad mum sayed.. cos i say thank u n they didn't reply at all.. like action.. den when they serve it was diff la... jus diff from parkway's fish&co... so ya lo...but, its all good la.. catch up loads wit my mum.. so yeapp..

so tats abt all for the week.. and till nw.. i STILL CANNOT FIND my fav.. oh maaaaaaan.. its killin meee... den YL purposely, tat thurs he suddenly scare me uh.. he say he saw her at P.S. with another guy.. den i was like.. hang time.. but, i ask him qns la.. den he ans all wrong.. hahahaa.. so.. in the end i knw he bedek me uh.. so yaaaa.. wahahahahahaaa..... oh yeaaaaa...

[ gt a song named after u.. all cos i saw u wit the sheesha thingy.. den bon was there.. he saw.. den he tittled the song "sheeda love sheesha" i wasn't happy abt it.. but, nw.. it sounds kinda cool actually.. hey, gt song after u lehz..!! hehe.. hopefully 2 see u soon... =) ]


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Lost For Words....

sucky.. oh well, i guess the only thing i can be happy abt is the change in timetable for the new term.. and its rather of a better time slot for me this time round.. so its kinda good news for me.. yay..!! and also there are silly things and mistakes i made along this week.. silly ones i guess.. and if i were to actually post up abt wad i did i think its gonna embarrass me soo badly and i think whoever reading this is gonna have the greatest laugh EVER..!!

oh well.. i pass.. i'm nt in a pretty much good mood nw actually.. cos it has always been this name circulating in my head.. trust me.. its nothin good but more than an irritant.. i'm not sure wad they are tryin to get out of it by putting me and her together.. nw i jus feel kinda sick and tired of the same old thing.. like its repeating and repeating.. i thought could handle it but i guess i can't.. i thought becomin an entertainment thing would actually keep ppl happy and myself also.. they didn't use harsh words tho.. but, its like non-stop action of tat person's name.. kinda sick.. and its soo bad tat when i see her i just get soo tired.. like, SIAN, jerlak.. dunno la.. its like i need eno or somethin to digest all this crap.. its jus too much.. i'm not sayin tat the person (whose name was being used) is irritating and sucky la.. jus tat i'm tired.. listenin to the same old thing.. and worst of all i don have a thing for her.. and even if i did.. i think it would have jus subsided in an instant because of the overdose of this disturbance.. nw i can say tat i understand how KL feels when he is being put together wit someone.. and it really jus gets u SICK and TIRED.. haiz.. and i feel like i kinda owe her and apology today.. was being kinda ignorant i think.. i jus didn't wanna give any chance to the ppl to disturb me and her.. so i didn't speak to her.. if u r reading this... Sorry.. i jus don knw wad to do right nw..

and this mornin.. went for basketball.. i guess it was because the lack of sleep or wadsoever.. ppl disturbin u again.. callin u sucky.. OMG.. i tell u.. i'm already soo unconfident wit basketball den still wanna press me dwn further.. WooOOoO.. F***king awesome.. but, i guess they all jus wanna laugh it off or somethin.. but, i really wanna thank see heng for puttin me back up.. encouragin me.. so i truly appreciated tat.. so yea.. overall i guess it was ok..

so next.. head home.. had a lil rest.. went to clark quay wit mum.. and it was rather awesome actually.. cos its a nice place to chill.. and i sOoOOo wanna go makan at HOOTERS..!! but, i need to save up first be4 i head there.. yea..!!! so.. nxt destination.. HOOTERS man..

kinda slept late yesterday.. helped a fren.. i think.. newly introduced fren by mimi.. so spoke to her lo.. den mimi end up falling asleep. so jus spoke to her till mornin.. but, it was all good la i guess.. its the least i could do.. heee...

and..... and... i manage to talk to FAV over the phone.. yeapp.. it was wonderful.. heehehe.. i was afraid to call at first.. somehw whenever i call her i will start to get all kanchiong.. den dunno la.. she still loves disturbin me.. and somehw i have this thing of always tellin her the truth.. like, even if i wanna try to disturb or prank her i jus can't seem to do it cos she has this look.. dunno hw to put it.. tat kinda look.. ah man.. i need a HUG soo badly right nw.. den den, i'm always tryin to get her talkin so i can hear her voice.. bwahahahaa.. but, she knws i'm dooin tat on purpose.. kakakaa.. cos i end up tellin her.. hahaha.. see... u see wad i mean.. i can't seem to keep wad i dun wanna say.. sharks.. oh well, its ok.. i dun mind.. i miss her many many many.. nw she's gt her new look.. i dunno hw its gonna b like.. i'm soooo excited.. hehe..

[ I need you to take me away from all this.. You r the last thing i hope not to make me feel sucky.. ]


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Jus Another Day..

days like this have been doin quite fine actually jus trackin back..

so wad is currently new on my mind would have to be cammy.. yes, i have gt her repaired finally.. and the good news is that there is no charge for her repairs.. so isn't tat jus wonderful?? hahaha.. i knw its kinda pathetic abt hw much fuss i made over jus for a camera.. hehe.. but, she was the one who help kept my past alive.. so anyway, its a gd thing cos there won't b a single cent needed cos my mum is blaming me because of her break down.. and nw its free there is nothin to blame me abt.. bwahahahaa.. and it was also gd news to me tat she could b repaired, cos my mum told me tat if the repair costs were to cost a bomb she wouldn't wanna get her repaired and she would purchase a new one and i won't b allowed to keep the camera with me.. so in other wards i would have to ask my mum for permission to borrow the new camera.. but, thank heaven's it is ok for repairs and its FREE.. awesome..!!! oh ya, jus for me to remember i gt her repaired on thurs with cindy's company.. and met dinie that day and it was her b'dae.. so i gt cammy repaired on her b'dae..!! hahahaa.. ok, tats kinda lame.. nvm.. kk.. change.. next..!!

got my results back.. didn't do well.. nt to my expectations.. so it kinda sucks to me..

things.. life.. it has been doin ok i guess.. and have been showered with alot of love also.. so its gd stuff to me.. hehe.. and practically i can say tat i'm kinda enjoyin wad i'm goin through right nw.. its sweet and really shiok.. hee.. but, nt all things will go the way they are suppose to in other's lives.. the complication of oneself.. the doubts one asks him/herself abt life.. well, i dun really knw much and i can't ans the right ans.. cos in life it is u who chooses the path and also the way to walk.. only u knw wad is best for u.. and maybe the reason y we make mistakes is to learn from it.. and if u feel tat its a mistake u wanna make to make urself a more experience and certain abt wad u wan in life kinda person.. den by all means make tat mistake and learn from there.. there are certain things in life tat forbids mistakes.. yea, erm for example maybe takin ur own life to knw the importance of another person.. nw, tat is a mistake u shld nt try to make in life.. and maybe studies wise i guess.. or maybe business investments?.. i dunno, maybe this are a few things u consider whether is it a mistake worth makin or not?.. hahahaa.. complications..!!

had a dream last night.. and i also realise tat the phase of life i'm goin through has alot of relations with sexuality.. yeapp.. the doubts.. n also the cause of some break-ups.. yea, i had a dream last night.. this fren, pri sch crush.. saw her and she wasn't happy cos her BF decided to go for a sex change?? and broke up with her.. and she was soo heart broken cos her BF left her becos he realise tat he isn't wad he think he is.. and in the end i comforted her and we kinda hit things off together.. oh well, dreams are dreams hor.. the main thing isn't abt us... but, hw doubts and sexuality in life causes a change in us.. and also the lives of others.. i mean, we didn't even had this prob in the early yrs of human life.. y nw?? jus typin this thing gets me thinkin.. y nw, in this generation the doubts one has gets even stronger than in the past? hmmm.. moral values? imagination? TV? parents? i dunno man.. dreamin of the impossible and makin them possible.. the pros and cons of dreamin and creativity.. hahahaa.. sharks..

ok.. anyway i'm no one to jus abt all this.. cos i'm jus 18.. still gt a long way to go.. maybe i'll never understand y.. but, its cool and kinda interesting tat humans are changin.. the traits of human beings.. well.. gettin more and more complicated.. even so we don even understand ourselves.. ah hah.! tat is y the word "dunno" and " entah" comes in.. right.. ? ( fav loves to use em)

oh well.. wad can i say.. hmm.. sch is gonna reopen soon.. things nt done yet on my list.. meet up with my JIE..!! my colleage.. sharks.. a deal is a deal and a promise is a promise.. i will meet up with her..!!

so right nw.. i jus miss hugs..!! miss em soo much..!! but, gt laughed at for my innocence for tryin to find a slot in fav's schedule.. i am soo innocent.. i am.. i truly am... hehe.. oh well, my innocence has gt me bullied.. hehe..

so i think tat is abt all.. mimi, has gt to try to turn her luck arnd in life.. look at the brighter side of things again.. and nt fuss over the bad ones... i think she has forgotten tat part... and fah, i soo wanna wish him gd luck with his mission to get his ex GF heart back.. yea, cos she is really somethin to him.. or else he wouldn't come find me.. i'm lik his last resort... hahahaa.. nt very gd one ba.. tat y last.. and also cherlie.. so funny, keep tellin me nt to b lazy to call her if i gt prbs.. so thankful for tat.. hahahaa.. but, she is a nice person and also a fren.. she is the person who lets me knw more abt the heart to a female.. hehe.. tips from there man..!! yea..!! hahahaaa.. she has it goin well..!! k la.. i think tat is abt all.. so till dunno when.. i'll update again..

[ see u be4 sch reopens... i'm prayin... =) ]


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Mistakes i made....

thought i could run away from all this.. well.. things will always have its way of keeping up with me and all.. us.. i had the best times with her tat early friday morning.. even though i had the worst things like the phone call etc.. it was nothin to me.. i came out with soo many lame excuses jus to have her by my side.. i spend 5 hrs with her tat day.. well.. it was short but all well spend.. well, qns maybe would b asked like so wad fun things did u guys did?.. we did nothin.. all we did was jus spend precious times together.. really together..

nw.. the qn she was stressin over was hw long were we gonna be together? till when den we'll say our goodbyes? and there was still the fate of another love story on the other side of her love life.. and it seems like he isn't doin too bad afterall tryin to get her.. he changed for her.. do things the way she wants him to do.. i mean, this guy is hella faithful and really willing to do anythin jus to be with her too.. and trust me, he is one hella nice guy also.. things are shaky now.. real shaky.. i was confident at first.. cos i thought there wasn't anymore competition goin on... but, somehow i was wrong.. there still was.. and to top things off he started chasin her way earlier than me.. and i was soo supportive of them back then.. sounds kinda stupid right? but, yea it was true.. cos i couldn't see it comin.. the thing abt me falling for her.. if u asked me abt hw i fell in love with her? i can remember tat one... sometimes i jus have this silly thinkin tat if both of them end up together i would feel relieve? i dunno..

and right now.. if i were to actually be frens with her.. it would somehow be soo much more easier.. she can end up with him.. and they'll last.. and everythin would b soo much more perfect.. yea, somehow wad she say abt hatin me does somehow sound kinda true.. right now, i too kinda hate myself for havin to enter her life.. fallin in love with her.. and right now, i have caused soo much complications between them.. like.. it was picture perfect till i came in.. like, i spoiled everythin.. destroyed.. well.. i think i am now jus thinkin back.. if havin to see from my point of view and through their shoes.. i feel i have done the biggest sin in my entire life.. and tat sin was to have things goin on with her... its jus sad to knw tat i've done soo much wrong..

i jus can't really describe the feelin tat even though u knw its soo wrong fallin in love with tat person u jus can't help but goin gaga over tat person over and over again.. and in the end all u're doin is jus endin urself and the other party into more and more complications and troubles..

i jus dunno hw to describe to u ppl hw much of a fantasy and love it was.. it was like a movie tat was soo sweet tat no one would watch cos it was too mushy.. and a love story tat no one would believe it would b possible to even happen in reality.. tat 5 hrs was really somethin to me.. now jus havin to think back.. i jus wish i could stay durin tat time and never want it to end.. even if it was jus sitting down and doin nothin.. jus lookin at her and havin her by my side was all tat i really needed.. its as though TV was nothin.. entertainment was crap.. and time was a pain in the butt.. like, there was jus nothin to worry abt.. nothin to lose.. and i think the feelin was somethin like, no one would believe that humans would b able to fly but, durin tat time.. it was soo magical tat even the thought of humans being able to fly was made believable and true.. if someone were to con me tat pigs could fly, i might jus believe him.. cos it was as though everythin was possible den.. i do love her alot.. like, she changed my life also.. is somethin like, if ur day sucked and jus havin her beside u will jus somehow make u smile on auto and ur life jus seems brighter and fine immediately.. and she had some guys sayin tat she isn't wonderful, jus somehow gets me thinkin.. are they sure abt wad they are sayin? i mean, i would do anythin for her.. almost anythin.. hmmm, feel like sayin if she were to ask me to rob a bank, i would rob man.. but, no la.. to a certain extend i will do things if she asked me to..

however.. we would nvr be able to run away from time.. every second every min.. i treasure.. i'm nt even sure if i shld treat every moment with her as the last time.. its jus soo hard sayin goodbye.. i did a video a video slide show of us.. of all our past pictures we had together.. i kept em all.. and i realise somethin.. it wasn't enough.. the pictures.. but, i really miss my camera right nw.. she was the one who help me made all this possible.. my memories.. she was the one.. she did it all.. now, i miss her soo much.. jus hope tat havin her repaired won't cost soo much.. i dun think i wanna have her replaced..

right now.. i dun even knw wad am i suppose to do.. but, one thing is for sure.. i better nt b confident again.. or else.. time with her would b cut dwn even shorter.. scary.. jus hope, it would nt end soo badly.. i jus hope and pray..

was this love right...?

[ I'm Sorry.... i would nvr b able to finish payin off my sorry(s) to u.. ur life.. i screwed it up for u.. ]


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