SHE moves on..

tuesday.. 11 plus.. gt a call.. tellin us tat my grandma couldn't make it anymore.. so my mum told my bro and i to rush dwn and see her.. so yea.. we gt dressed and rush dwn.. 12 plus we gt onboard the taxi.. headin to see grandma.. but.. we were late.. she left us be4 we got there in time.. when we first reached there my grandma had both her eyes and mouth opened.. my uncle was there makin phone calls.. den my mum jus asked him.. how is she.. den my uncle say gone already.. the next thing i knew.. my mum broke dwn.. shook my grandma.. asked her why she didn't waited for us den she made her leave.. and my uncle was on the phone callin up the undertakers.. so yea.. and anyway back to where i left off.. my mum cried.. and wad really shocked me was tat my grandma still looked as tho she was still living.. but, the fact was tat she had already left us.. her eyes were watery.. and mouth opened.. she didn't leave in peace.. but, instead she left in pain.. seeing my mum cryin like tat.. all i could do was jus offer her a hug.. and i couldn't remember when was the last time i really hugged my mum.. but, i knew tat day was the only day i really hugged her.. she cried and cried.. askin me why she didn't wait.. and i jus hug her tellin her its ok.. so yea.. i too jus cried.. we were late..

and my mum asked my bro and i to bless my grandma.. so yea.. i held my grandma's hand.. and the other hand on her forehead.. and in my heart.. i told her nt to worry and asked her to leave in peace.. and dun worry cos my mum will settle everythin.. my grandma was always worried abt her kids.. in otherwards my uncle.. yea, she was worried abt alot of things.. i couldn't promise my grandma anythin.. because i knew i wasn't capable enough to take up the responsiblities.. so yea.. i used my mum's name instead.. yea, maybe u might think i'm kinda bad.. but, i dun wanna screw up someone's wish tats soo impt.. so yea.. gt to b realistic abt tat.. but, yea.. i will help my mum out in wadever way i can.. and so.. tat was the day my grandma left us... i was shock.. but, wasn't scared.. wad really gt me upset was tat she left in pain.. and a whole set of worries behind.. and so.. i reported for work the next day..

work was ok.. manage to complete 12 places in 7 hrs i think.. from 9.30 till 5.30.. i called my boss up.. he told me tat i could hav chose nt to attend work tat day.. so yea.. he is really nice uh.. btw, this dude incharge of me is called mr yap.. and yea he told me he is really flexible.. so i told him i'll b takin leave for almost a week.. and he was ok with it..

so i've been stayin in nights after nights takin the late nights to help out.. foldin all those hell money into this gold like shape.. so yea.. fold it night after night.. i was there from 8 plus 9 till the next mornin 8 plus.. and i always slept in the mornin and in the night i'll go dwn to help out.. and the adults r the ones who take the mornin shift.. and its kinda lucky tat i've gt mr yap as my boss.. cos most of them has gt work the next day some has school.. so yea.. i took over... but, i wasn't alone la durin tat time... had my aunty and uncle along with me too...and thank heavens i've gt my mp4 with me.. watched heroes when i was takin a break.. so yea.. all was gd..

today was the burnin of all her things.. like the money and the paper houses etc.. so yea.. and she gonna b crimated the day after tml.. which is sat.. i didn't stay in today.. because there is more than enough ppl stayin back.. so i get to rest more today.. =) oh gosh, i'm soo gonna miss my grandma's cooking.. damm..

and cindy was nice also.. she lives a blk away from my grandma.. so yea.. met up.. had some supper with her... so ya lor... met up wit her and i gt the great spy experiment cd.. some demo i think.. haven really took a listen to it yet.. so wanna thank cindy for her time tho.. thank you...

hearin all those stories durin my late nights from my aunty uncle.. i also knew y my grandma was so worried for all of them.. now i knw.. but, wadever it is.. wad is done is already done.. i've gt more things actually besides wad i did.. ppl's personality.. anger.. who is angry with who.. but, all i can say.. i'm nt gonna blog it at all.. jus to b safe..

right now.. i soo yearn for a hug..a big fat hug from my lil one.. yea, she and i.. its been awhile.. all i can say things jus start comin out on after another and its jus soo hard to actually meet up with her.. and i was sooo desperate for a hug tat i wanted to hug anyone i met.!!! aHHhHHH~hH~hH.. damm.. i wanna see her soon.. HIRO where are u?? help me bend time.!!!

i think tats all i gt to say for now.. tml is another busy day for me..

[ You're greatly missed too.. i'm sorry abt u havin doubts abt me.. its been a while.. really has.. i'm sorry.. talk soon.......... ]


m.C.

Happy B'day Shark..

Yeapp.. one of the four neoprint pictures... today or yesterday to say it was sharks b'day.. its funny hw he begged us to go out with him on his b'day.. gosh.. hahahaa.. i was like laughin at him la i say y u beg ppl to go out wit u on ur b'day.. so i told him u dun hav to beg ppl one lahz.. den i say i sure go.. its ur b'day.. and u ask me out so i better attend lor.. so yea.. we went out in a grp.. but, zal wasn't there.. for some reason..

ok. to start of.. we had our "dinner" at ramenten.. a halal japanese food restaurant.. hahaha.. ok, i think its been there for quite a while, but its my first time tastin it.. and yea, the food there is great.. so yea.. awesome.!! i knw i enjoyed mine.. jus tat shark had a lil bit of regret cos he ordered the wrong drink.. some ice cold japanese tea.. hahaha.. and yea, there was this waitress uh.. hahaha.. she took our orders.. den we notice at the side of her name there was this [ =p ] so we were like disturbin shark la.. say tat the waitress left him tat because it was his b'day.. hahahaa.. like tryin to hook him and her up.. ok, i think there is a picture taken of both him and her.. hahahaa.. niceeee...

so after tat.. gt a taste of fried choc mars bar.. nice.. dam nice i tell u.. woOOOhoOoOO.. love it.. cost $3.20.. nice nice nice.. can't describe.. i give it 9/10.. hahahaha.. its a must try.. and its some british shop uh.. i can't remember the shop's name.. ok, maybe some of u readin this might hav probably tasted it.. but, its my first time.. and its nice.. shop is opposite gelare.. so yea.. far east.. take note..

den after tat we head dwn to borders.. because i had a $20 gift voucher.. i decided to get somethin there.. den....... i had a changed of mind.. decided to get somethin for shidah.. ahahaha.. yeapp, i dunno y.. but, i gt somethin for her over there.. its some book thingy, its pretty awesome actually cos u can write nt only ur notes but at the same time there are plastic and some compartments for u to store photos and some stuff.. really cool.. to me.. but, jus hope tat she'll like it.. hahahaa.. and the best thing.. exactly $20.!! so yea.. cooOoOL.. it was like fated or somethin.. hahahaha..!! ok.. movin on..

den we went to cineleisure.. gosh, it has really been a while since i played the arcade.. hahaha.. so challenge la wit shark.. den first time he lost.. den can see u knw.. his face la sadden den cursing and swearin.. den ask me for a re-match.. hahah.. den rematch lor.. and... he won.. ya la, den can action to me.. " hahaha, marcus i win u" somethin like tat la.. ah ya, wadever it is nothin gd la.. but, i was ok wit it.. cos he sounded so manja.. i also dunno hw to get mad at him but jus to laugh.. hahahaha.. den after tat.. we decided to take neoprints.. hahahaa.. gosh.. the moments of jus takin on neoprint.. so difficult.. the japanese words.. i tell u uh... we were like some 5 yr olds tryin to operate the machine.. hahahaha... dam funny..!!

but, anyway.. we managed to pull through i guess.. pics still turned out fine to me.. hahahaha.. so yea.. neoprints.. cool.. den movin on.. we head dwn to the place opposite istana.. den took some pics.. den movin on.. we head dwn to fort canning park.. hahahaa.. yea, it was scary alright.. quiet.. den shark shared some stories of wad happen during the time he was there.. when he ran away from home etc.. where he slept and wad kinda noises he heard.. hahahaha.. i tell u uh.. it was dam freakin scary alright.. hahaha.. den i think they were sitting on the swing.. den somethin drop.. ahahhaaa.. den izz say, " ok, all of us didn't heard it uh.. its nothin.." hahaha.. funny.. den they jus sat on this swing.. its like a swing facin each other i think its some old classic swing uh.. hahaha.. den they sat on it.. and we sang some old songs.. hahaha.. westlife, backstreet boys la.. den i dunno wad else.. i mean, we even sung lemon tree.. some classic man.!!! hahahhaa.. all sing together.. hahaha.. WOoOoOOo.. nice..

den after tat.. we jus head home lor.. i think overall it was fun uh.. but, money.. hahaha.. spend quite a bit tho.. hehe.. but, yea.. it was gd.. i love it.. hahahaha.. had fun.. =)

i dunno wad is next.. but.... today was awesome..!!!! happy b'day shark.!!!

[ You better take my gift for u uhhh... MUST.!!! =) ]



m.C.

HOPE..

replied.. i got a reply.. i dunno.. but, i couldn't really feel the happiness i felt last time.. this entry.. has nothin to do with the previous one regardin my grandma.. i jus hav to blog this dwn.. cos its currently murderin me inside uh..

me.. i gt dependent on someone i hardly knew.. depended my smiles on tat person.. and somehow i understand the feeling of ppl leavin and comin back out of the blue.. yea, i mean.. i'm nt emotionally attached.. but, the hope u had of smilin.. somehow became no hope cos half way the guide u had jus faded.. lost.. den u jus realise u r the one who is the gong gong all the while... tat kinda thing.. i dunno.. oh gosh.. i really dunno wad i've actually gt myself into.. thought i had somethin new to look forward in life.. somethin to runaway from.. ah.. forget it la.. silly me...

today.. work.. johnson and johnson.. in the mornin gave dinie a wake up call.. money issues with the family.. today is practically seeing wad the ppl hav inside.. wad is inside of em.. wad they consist of.. wad is hidden.. everythin.. i guess its mostly abt life.. an INCREASE in tat.. gd news.. bad news.. grandma nt doin tat well.. but, we're all prepared.. pissed.. because impt ppl nt there to visit my grandma..

haiz.. F***... i thought i had found my key to smilin free..!! but.. it only lasted a while... i miss..... hate the "PoOFinG!!" effects... =(


[ Thnks.... i'm having fear.. trust issues.. why? i really dunno wad has come over me... do u? can help me find the reason? ]


m.C.

Helpless...

well.. first half of my day.. ok.. it was ok.. woke up.. finish up wadever i had to finish up for the public speaking competition.. well.. i didn't win.. but, gt some $20 borders voucher or somethin.. met zai.. yea, she looks like better.. nothin much.. den pass nic the dvd i burned.. i kinda like promoted the band via the brochure for ppl to read.. had avian sixty four's name included in my profile.. i dun really hav the mood to scan wadever in.. so probably nxt time i'll scan in it and probably leave it on another post..

i can't help it but i have to blog this second part of my day.. it isn't really somethin to write abt.. but, i jus can't help it.. and i jus want u ppl to knw tat i'm nt bloggin this so tat ppl will hav tat kinda like pity.. so.. i jus wanna say wad i feel and thought abt life..

visited my grandma.. yea, i can admit tat i'm nt really tat close to her because i dun really speak tat fluent hokkien.. but, yea she was the one who took care of me and my bro when we were younger.. so yeapp.. visited her together with my mum and my bro.. and i jus broke dwn when i saw her in pain.. she nt being able to talk much, jus always staring into space and always frownin and moanin when the pain sets in.. jus really upsets u.. u can see tat she is tired and wants to sleep but the constant pain jus causes her nt to.. i mean, it gt so bad tat she say in hokkien tat the pain is soo bad tat she is goin to die.. and jus seein my mum sniffin jus made me felt even worst.. i mean, it was soo bad tat u jus wanna help ease the pain from her.. she was holdin the railin by the bed.. i mean, it was like pain to its max.. pain tats beyond the word pain.. jus seein her like this really made me felt so useless and helpless.. i really wanna help her ease wadever pain... and when my mum jus touch her forehead her eyes were abt to close and sleep den the pain came back.. she woke up.. i dunno jus how to describe it..

tears were comin dwn.. and we left the room for a while because she vomited.. so... during tat time i jus couldn't help it.. i jus always had the flash back of me when i was younger and being taken care by her.. i still do recall those times.. and when i was sick i'd always b at my grandma's... she takes care of me too.. and i can remember there was once she cooked me one whole fish.. i loved fish alot.. i finished everythin.. =) i jus teared and teared.. my mum told me tat we shld get goin.. but, i kinda said no.. cos deep inside somewhere i really wanted to say a prayer for her.. i had to.. i felt the need to.. so it took me quite a while before i sat beside her bed.. i sat dwn.. held her hand and the other hand on her forehead.. and its jus so pleasin to see tat she is abt to sleep when u do tat.. the comfort she felt in the facial expression.. i said wad i had to say in my heart.. she wasn't some christian lady.. but, i did wad i had to do.. say wad i had to say.. durin tat few mins.. i felt kinda relieved from the comfort look she had.. before i left.. i kissed her forehead.. i dunno but, i jus felt tat it was a need to..

mum told me.. last time.. when i was a kid and was at my grandma's.. i was naughty and my mum wanted to cane me den i ran behind my grandma.. den my grandma told her tat if i ran behind her means i want my grandma to protect me.. so my grandma told my mum tat she can't cane me.. so my mum didn't.. so she caned me at home lor.. i mean, durin tat part when my mum told me.. i started to tear again.. gosh.. i really dunno wad to say.. i mean, i'd b fine if she left.. but, seeing her sufferin in pain nt being able to sleep jus makes u feel really upset..

even tho i'm nt tat close.. communication nt tat wonderful.. there is still somethin somewhere in my heart.. now her days are really counting dwn.. and.. i'll do wadever i can.. i'm so sorry if its a depressed or and angry entry.. but, i jus wanna say wad i have inside.. so yeapp..


[ I'm sorry.. Delays after delays.. ]


m.C.

oook..

met up with Kl and the rest after my JOB.. and today.. i learn how to "fix" and also increase my knowledge abt printers.. and also.. reformattin one computer is sooo tough.. hahahaa.. sounds silly but there are soo many rules la needed to b done in order to reformat one computer.. ah yooo.. so restricted.. yeeesh..!!

and.. nadiah asked me somethin really silly la.. hahahaa.. well, i answerd her with wad i thought was right.. and also.. nadiah if u r reading this.. this is the song.. CHE.R.RY..!!! take a listen.. i knw its jap.. but.. THIS IS THE SONG.!! and soo funny.. hahahaa.. she likes this guy.. dam cute la after readin it.. in her sch i think.. hahahaa.. so i'm gonna help her in everyway i can uh.. hehe.. oh yeaaaaa.!!! can't wait to knw and hear more from her.. =)

and.. tml there's work.. i love my job.. i wanna go out.!! still nothin.. oh well.. i'll wait i think.. hehe.. public speakin.. COMIN SOON.. jia lat..

[ Ok.. wad i'm thinkin now.. is the sms miscommunication.. hahahaa.. *flash back* whoaaaaa... ]



m.C.

Missing Screw...

Picture.. HERO in the workshop.. ok, this is wad we'll b facing for the nxt few weeks i think.. cool uh.. the WORKSHOP of mess..!! DUN WORRY.!! i'm here.. but, not to clean up uh..!! just to pose only.. WOOOoOoOO...!!

Alright.. first day of work.. wadda hell did i do.. learn abt printer stuff.. ok.. i think the only thing tat totally benifited me was the network thing.. networkin stuff like how to install the printer usin a network cable etc.. hahahaha.. i dunno la.. i guess it was the most freakin slack time i ever had in my workin experience.. did nothin... talk cock practically for 4 hrs.. i think we totally had nothin to do after lunch uh.. hahahaha.. jus talk talk.. take pic.. hahaha.. take video.. and the best we've gt FREE FLOW of wadever drinks we wanted.. milo la, coffee la.. i mean, i can actually spend ur whole day tryin out the list of hot beverages from the machines.. hahahaa.. its free and u can jus grab a cup anytime from the pantry.. well, wad can i say.. the ppl there totally friendly ba.. but, i realise somethin.. all the guys workin there all like HOT and PRETTY lookin chicks.. unfortunately.. the ones tat are on attachment with us.. not really up to their standards i guess.. can complain in hokkien somemore.. ah yooooo.. hahaha.. azman say they are like perver's man.. well, i kinda gt to agree to him on tat one..

and from the sounds of it.. i think i'm actually gonna hav quite a bit of fun with this attachment thingy.. hahahahhaa.. oh my my.. i really wonder wad is NEXT man..!! ok..!! right now..i'm sooo missin my mail buddy.. i DUNNO WHERE IS SHE..??!!! gosh.. now i like dun hav anythin to look forward to liao.. like back to square one.. =(

ok.. movin on.. i'm tired.. i've gt this public speakin comin up.. and dam, i'm sooo nt ready for it.. and at work.. durin lunch break.. SOO MANY LADIES.. den makes me wonder.. are the males workin anot?? or there has been a change in wad guys and girls do at home??? its seriously scary..

alright.. i think tats abt all.. oh, and my heart gt hole.. and and and i'm a slackaraion.. i'm from the planet slack and i hate the stress planet.. TADAaaA..!! ok.. tats freakin lame.. oh talkin abt lame.. mimi's lame.. hahahahaa..!! =P

oh and yea.. do visit zakiah's blog.. she's gt some new work piece up.. really cool.. so do chk it out..!! and do chk out AVIAN SIXTY FOUR's spaces located at the right hand side.. music up also.. do chk em.. hehe.. kk.. THANKSsSssSsssS..!!!

[ so hw was the first day of sch? i text u tho.. hope to talk to u soon.. =) ]



m.C.

Completion..

finally.. completion of hazi syndrome is done.. sounds pretty nice actually.. with all the backups etc.. and couldn't help it.. but, i wanna promote (+44) so much tat i wanna let u guys knw more abt them.. jus love the band man.. hahahaha... but, i love my band more.. hahahaha...

ok.. anyway.. check out mark hoppus's blog.. really cool guy.. respect him loads.. so yea.. [ http://himynameismark.com/ ] i'd probably b adding his blog add to one of my links.. for easy access etc..

gonna start attachment on monday.... yea.. no shit abt tat.. and this week has really been really a tiring one.. tryin to get all the right tunes done and my singin right etc.. but, i'm glad tat all is over.. and yea, hopefully we can get bliah's mtv out and goin real soon.. and jus hope tat its gonna b really nice and cool.. so u guys hold on for tat..

and movin on.. there is actually a video of us.. doin the mixing over at macafe dwntwn east.. and yea.. it includes SUPER funny moments of our band mates who were there with us doin nothin.. hahaha.. i'm nt sure whether it'll b up anot.. need to seek approval first and the file is kinda big.. so.. i dunno la how.. hahahaha..

alright... till den.. =)


[ so how was ur weekends? ]



m.C.

Support..!!

ok.. this was wad i did yesterday.. went to la selle.. gave support to beyonce.. but, i was late.. went there with the band.. so kinda like introduce her to the band and the band to her.. so yea.. wasted la i was late.. so yea, kinda feel bad la abt tat.. SORRY beyonce.. nxt time la hor.. den dinie also asked me to come dwn to help her take some pics.. but, i was late.. i think i came when they were all packin up and ready to go.. so yea.. ah yaaaa.. feel bad uh.. shaaaait.. it was nice to knw tat beyonce didn't mind chillin with us.. but, she had to work.. so yeapp.. too bad.. and dam la, didn't manage to get dinie and shark to meet each other.. DARN..!!

den we jus head dwn to some music store to chk out the prices etc.. ah yoooo.. so tempting.. wanna buy but gt no money.. this sucks la.. den den.. i gt a pick.. nylon piece.. awesome man.. WOoOoO.. and i think the rest is pretty much it.. ouh, den we did imitating of one another.. hahaha.. and dam.. shark is gd la..

I saw natasha.. but, i nvr call.. i dunno y la.. dun ask me why.. somethin jus held me back.. so when i was leavin den i text her uh.. she called me.. den... she wanted to meet me at bus stop or somethin.. but, i refused uh.. so yea.. she gt kinda pissed at me ba.. i also dunno wad is wrong.. NATASHA.. sorry lahz.. another time...

anyway.. we all headed home.. and on the journey we talked abt somethin stupid la.. dunno la banglastressonline la bla bla bla.. hahaha.. dam funny la.. and the reason y all of this started is because we were playin true or dare below zal's blk.. den the dare was tat dose had to push this cart tat the cleaner's use through and flo the car park and shout uh.. hahahaha.. and when zal went back his mum asked him if we made too much noise is it, tats y the bangla so noisy with the push cart.. hahahahaa.. OUH.. if u understand the joke den its really FUNNY uh.. hahaha.. ok.. lame.. nxt..

today.. went for the public speakin trainin.. gosh.. i kinda enjoyed it uh actually.. hahaha.. and i've actually learnt some pointers on certain things.. on how to speak better etc.. and i hav a prb.. I'M still stuck with my singlish.. i tend to pronounce it after each sentence i speak..so.. MY WEAK POINT.. HAhHHAhHAHh.. darn.. and i gt my previous performance DVD.. COOOL..

oh yea.. didn't manage to meet shidah today.. she was busy.. so yea.. and i guess i failed again.. my promise to meet her be4 sch re-open.. I BROKE MY PROMISE..!! AHhHH~hHhH..!! so yea.. sorry..!! keep disappointin her time and again.. gosh... both busy ppl.. haiz.. die lahz... this is a F*** F*** situation.. wah.....

sat at bucks alone today.. and.. it felt GOOD.. hahaha.. i manage to finish the poem.. yeasss.. tats gd news.. hahahhaa.. post it on friendster le.. WOoOoOoO.. it feels gd finishin somethin.. hahaha.. but, i still strugglin on hazi syndrome.. so... WAH KAO.........................

anyway.. i think tats abt all.. the whole msn thing is pretty much screwed up.. damm.. and yea...

[ i'm so sorry... i owe u.. ALOT.... see u soon... =) ]

m.C.

LEFT...

I'm SAD.. oh well.. its for the best i guess..

i opened and read the mail..

my heart SKIP den STOP..

den started beating again..

WAH LIAO.. the FEELING..

Its Worst Than The Word SAD..

No words to describe..

Pictures

alright.. seems kinda silly.. but, can't help it.. had to post em up.. this r the nicer ones so far.. hahahhaa.. glad i took cammy out today.. if nt.. couldn't take pictures like this.. gosh, its been a while since i took her out and take pics.. hahahaha.. ENJOY..!! location pasir ris park..!!

saw rivermaya.. NVR TAKE PIC WITH EM.. cos they were in a hurry.. DAMMIT.. i brought my camera den nvr take.. AhHhHHHhhhhHh~HhHh...!!

shannie txt me... cool.. thought she changed number.. she saw me at toa payoh today.. so yea.. she txt me to confirm.. hav to blog this dwn.. i dunno y.. but, yea.. hahahahaha..

tryin out somethin new now.. hahahaha.. and yea, sounds pretty GOOD to me actually.. hahahaha.. WOOOooOhOoOo.!!!

till den.. this post is more or less for the pics la.. hahahaha.. die.. recordin again tml.!!!

[ i'll try to get u this tues.. hopefully i can finish everythin den.. so sorry.. ]

m.C.

GONGED...

alright... finally did one song.. and took bloody long to do it.. hahaha.. and, jus to top things off there are some parts still nt in gd shape.. so yea, this is NOT GOOD news for me man.. AhHH~HHH`hhHh.. ok.. anyway.. the morning with A64 wasn't tat bad.. except some were sick.. and its like they were really giving all out.. so yea.. hahaha.. dam funny uh to see ppl tireden den the weird looks on their faces.. hahaha..!!

ok.. anyway.. i'm feeling kinda LOST.. cos my regular routine chk isn't there.. the person who got me into believing tat coffee could b made really good without having the need to taste em.. so yea.. BoOOoO..!! oh................................ i miss those stories..!!

ok.. anyway.. movin on.. its kinda cool to see students again.. ahahaha.. was on the way back.. den took bus arnd 6 plus in the morning.. and dam, it made me recall the times i had to take bus to sch.. run for the bus.. notice this girl.. run for the bus.. wait for the train.. notice this girl.. run for bus.. sleep on the bus with my mp3 player.. hahahaa.. it was cool uh... jus thinkin back abt it.. really makes u smile man..!! WooHOoOo.. hahahaha.. alright.. anyway, i didn't quite eat uh.. darn.. cos i was practically sleeping the whole afternoon..

oh.. jus watched wedding crashers on HBO somethin.. darn.. it was nice man.. hahahaha.. funny and nice.. u knw wad.. i've sooo been wantin to learn how to talk like chris rock.. dam, tat guy can really talk.. if i can talk like him during my public speaking.. WooHoOoo.. it'll b darn GREAT man..!! hahahaa..

ok.. i dun think i've gt much to update uh.. everythin has been more or less the same.. nothin new...

[ when can we go out?? hmmm.. this is getting harder... ]



m.C.