tuesday.. 11 plus.. gt a call.. tellin us tat my grandma couldn't make it anymore.. so my mum told my bro and i to rush dwn and see her.. so yea.. we gt dressed and rush dwn.. 12 plus we gt onboard the taxi.. headin to see grandma.. but.. we were late.. she left us be4 we got there in time.. when we first reached there my grandma had both her eyes and mouth opened.. my uncle was there makin phone calls.. den my mum jus asked him.. how is she.. den my uncle say gone already.. the next thing i knew.. my mum broke dwn.. shook my grandma.. asked her why she didn't waited for us den she made her leave.. and my uncle was on the phone callin up the undertakers.. so yea.. and anyway back to where i left off.. my mum cried.. and wad really shocked me was tat my grandma still looked as tho she was still living.. but, the fact was tat she had already left us.. her eyes were watery.. and mouth opened.. she didn't leave in peace.. but, instead she left in pain.. seeing my mum cryin like tat.. all i could do was jus offer her a hug.. and i couldn't remember when was the last time i really hugged my mum.. but, i knew tat day was the only day i really hugged her.. she cried and cried.. askin me why she didn't wait.. and i jus hug her tellin her its ok.. so yea.. i too jus cried.. we were late..
and my mum asked my bro and i to bless my grandma.. so yea.. i held my grandma's hand.. and the other hand on her forehead.. and in my heart.. i told her nt to worry and asked her to leave in peace.. and dun worry cos my mum will settle everythin.. my grandma was always worried abt her kids.. in otherwards my uncle.. yea, she was worried abt alot of things.. i couldn't promise my grandma anythin.. because i knew i wasn't capable enough to take up the responsiblities.. so yea.. i used my mum's name instead.. yea, maybe u might think i'm kinda bad.. but, i dun wanna screw up someone's wish tats soo impt.. so yea.. gt to b realistic abt tat.. but, yea.. i will help my mum out in wadever way i can.. and so.. tat was the day my grandma left us... i was shock.. but, wasn't scared.. wad really gt me upset was tat she left in pain.. and a whole set of worries behind.. and so.. i reported for work the next day..
work was ok.. manage to complete 12 places in 7 hrs i think.. from 9.30 till 5.30.. i called my boss up.. he told me tat i could hav chose nt to attend work tat day.. so yea.. he is really nice uh.. btw, this dude incharge of me is called mr yap.. and yea he told me he is really flexible.. so i told him i'll b takin leave for almost a week.. and he was ok with it..
so i've been stayin in nights after nights takin the late nights to help out.. foldin all those hell money into this gold like shape.. so yea.. fold it night after night.. i was there from 8 plus 9 till the next mornin 8 plus.. and i always slept in the mornin and in the night i'll go dwn to help out.. and the adults r the ones who take the mornin shift.. and its kinda lucky tat i've gt mr yap as my boss.. cos most of them has gt work the next day some has school.. so yea.. i took over... but, i wasn't alone la durin tat time... had my aunty and uncle along with me too...and thank heavens i've gt my mp4 with me.. watched heroes when i was takin a break.. so yea.. all was gd..
today was the burnin of all her things.. like the money and the paper houses etc.. so yea.. and she gonna b crimated the day after tml.. which is sat.. i didn't stay in today.. because there is more than enough ppl stayin back.. so i get to rest more today.. =) oh gosh, i'm soo gonna miss my grandma's cooking.. damm..
and cindy was nice also.. she lives a blk away from my grandma.. so yea.. met up.. had some supper with her... so ya lor... met up wit her and i gt the great spy experiment cd.. some demo i think.. haven really took a listen to it yet.. so wanna thank cindy for her time tho.. thank you...
hearin all those stories durin my late nights from my aunty uncle.. i also knew y my grandma was so worried for all of them.. now i knw.. but, wadever it is.. wad is done is already done.. i've gt more things actually besides wad i did.. ppl's personality.. anger.. who is angry with who.. but, all i can say.. i'm nt gonna blog it at all.. jus to b safe..
right now.. i soo yearn for a hug..a big fat hug from my lil one.. yea, she and i.. its been awhile.. all i can say things jus start comin out on after another and its jus soo hard to actually meet up with her.. and i was sooo desperate for a hug tat i wanted to hug anyone i met.!!! aHHhHHH~hH~hH.. damm.. i wanna see her soon.. HIRO where are u?? help me bend time.!!!
i think tats all i gt to say for now.. tml is another busy day for me..
[ You're greatly missed too.. i'm sorry abt u havin doubts abt me.. its been a while.. really has.. i'm sorry.. talk soon.......... ]
m.C.