Feelin Better.. KerZtank...

okaes... jus came back from my small little outing of my own... i went to starbucks simei all by myself.. well.. must be wondering why i went there all alone? i decided to make a trip to starbucks at 9 plus so thats why i never called my friends.. it was a last minute decision and it was not very nice to inform my friends last minute rite? so i just sat there and looked at things around me from a really different angle.. and i felt really better after that.. i guess sometimes i just need this kinda stuff to make myself feel better.. while i was havin my coffee there i noticed that there were loads of smokers.. its like abt 8/10 singaporeans smoke? hmm, its kinda funny that i'm not at all least interested in smoking.. plus i also noticed that there were alot of couples around.. i dunno whether its good anot but, the younger generation of ppl might get influence and wanna get in a relationship really early.. O well.. we can't stop earth from spinning and ppl from gettin old..

i was there reading my book.. " A Walk To Remember ".. i was really engrossed with the book.. couldn't stop to revise for my mother tongue exam... but wad can i say the story is really good.. i can remember the last time i was so engross in a book was when i was reading " Harry Potter " but i've not been reading abt potter already.. hehe.. lazy i guess... tml i've got my O level's MT.. I'm really scared for tml's paper.. haiz.. jus hope that i'll be able to pull through with something.. hope so...

Next i'm glad that my sistar is doin pretty well with her love life? I'm really happy for you.. i was also happy when you called me to tell me abt wad had actually happen i could hear the excitement you had in the tone of your voice.. hehe.. funny but pleasant.. i'm glad that things finally turned out right..

me? love? dunnos....

[ Hmmm... so Wad is Goin on now?? Should He or Should He Not?? "NIce to know, Sad To Find Out... He Guess Some Things Just Don't Turn Out The Way You Want Them To.... He Is Just WaiTin For An Echo To Come Back To Him.... ]

I Found One Of My Long Lost Song....

hmm.. now is 1.55am in the mornin.. gd mornin.. yesterday was a great day.. enjoyed myself loads.. First, went to have lunch with my family first then after that visited my grandma..
After that went to orchard with khim leng and ashley.. had a nice time la i would say.. but also a very expensive one too.. its really nice to know that i've got friends who is willin to help u out when u are short of money? hehe.. all i know is that they are really nice people.. went to far east to have some cheap meals.. nice and good.. home cooked meals.. today's joke was that we went into the lift and forgot to get out when we reached the destinated floor.. so we ended up makin two trips.. up and down.. haha.. best of all khim leng was the one who was so called pressin the lift buttons.. haha.. funny one indeed.. next we made a trip down to another far east shoppin mall.. i can't seem to recall wad the mall names were.. dammit.. we went to play.. POOL... bwahahaha.. niccee.....

next.. made a trip down to simei.. the usual hang out for the coffee gatherin.. there was not many ppl there though.. so nothin much to see.. ashley accidently bought this green tea bottle which taste very awful.. yukes.. it was really bitter.. and so we had to think of a way to finish up the drink.. we played games to solve the problem.. like how long will it take for the next train to arrive and how many ppl will walk past us in 2 mins.. haha.. one word to describe that moment.. "FUN".. haha...

Right at this moment i'm smilin as i type.. i'm really glad that i had this day out.. enjoyed myself loads and now i am feelin so much relieved.. woohoo.. plus plus.. i also found the song which really matches how i feel now.. haha.. Blink 182 - story of a lonely guy.. yea!! woohoo!!! hope you'll enjoy it.. i think its time for me to catch some sleep.. so until den.. Party ON.. bwahahaha........

[ He Hopes That He HAs Added Some Lovely And Beautiful Changes To Her Life ]


m.C.

SomeTimEs...

alright.. today.. ok.. i think i wanna talk abt friday.. friday was my schools talent time and i was the mc.. so i had received comments that i was like, erm sacarstic { Hope no spellin Error }.. well seriously i am really sorry for bein like that.. i dunno whether i crossed the line anot on that day but.. i can seriously tell you that it was seriously no joke bein a host or an mc.. is like i've got to find some crap to talk about and i was suppose to drag time plus i got no script on that day.. haiz.. i thought i'll be able to handle it.. but too bad.. i think i failed.. the reason for me not bein able to talk was becoz i was very afraid of the response i might get from the audience.. so in a way i was scared.. my hands were shakin when i was up there.. i was really nervous.. but never mind at least i know wad is like now.. one word to describe " tough"..
Next.. after the talent time celebration i had my chinese mock exam.. its really tough.. i have no idea how i'll be able to make it through.. haiz.. stress.. why.. will i be able to find some miracle to this crappy weakness of mine?? wad is goin to happen next?? i've really got to get my study mood back or else i am really goin to screw up very badly.. TIME....
after that i made a trip down to my friends birthday bbq.. it was okok la i would say.. the only thing i enjoyed when i was there was disturbin the birthday boy.. "rubber" was the phrase that night.. haha.. but it was fun la.. but there is somethin i missed most that night.. not the girls but.. the coffee night that i always had with ashley, khim leng and michelle... whenever we had that night out i will somehow always feel very relieved when i set my foot back home.. like all my troubles are left or kept somewhere else.. its a really nice feelin.. and a kinda expensive one i would say.. haha...
SAT.. which is 15 mins jus now.. life was simple.. never go out.. jus bought cable for my computer.. now she is sittin at the top.. 2 lights at home are spoiled got to get new ones tml.. sis is angry with me for not tellin her stuff.. well.. i'm really sorry but i have my reasons for doin this.. is not that i don trust her but is jus that i feel that she is not gonna be able to handle it when i tell her.. maybe to me she is jus not ready yet.. btw i have no other new girlfriends yet... i will tell you the same reason why i've got no new ladies in my life yet cos , I'm nothin good...
i can see that everybody has their own things to worry abt in their own life.. like everybody has their own really own problems... sometimes i jus wished i could help but jus afraid that i might get rejected for tryin to help or maybe i might be even called busybody... so better not help?? i dunno.. very complicated..

[ His Feelings Are Blurred.. He Is Confused... Wads Next??? ]



m.C.

He Now Knows More....

Today.. went to orchard with my mum and brother.. went to search for the best spagetti.. so yup we went there and had our fills.. as usual loads of pretty things to see there.. heehe... den from there i also notice that there is alot of girls usin quite a bit of make-up.. pretty heavy i would say.. den i jus realised that a real pretty girl would be the one that does not have to put on any make up at all.. and that is wad i would call natural beauty.. wah la...
and today i jus realise that i like girls who put on caps.. hehe.. i find it nice.. ok enough.. fantasy is beyond reality... gettin carried away...

And i Manage to find "somebody's" blog.. and i read it.. and i jus realise there is more to her than meets the eye.. she is not so simple after all... so now there is a question which jus runs in my mind.. was i lucky that i did not end up with her? i have no idea.. but i'll read more and hopefully i'll be able to understand wad sort of person she is.. and I jus Hope that she will be able to enjoy life and look at life from another angle.. it somehow isn't that bad after all...

Plus Plus.. i have finally got the book that i'm lookin for.. bwahahaha.. book lehz.. don play play.. i'm readin.. oh yea... and i also wanna take this opportunity to thank huzaifah for enlightening me in his blog expertise.. hopefully i got the spellin right.. so the outcome of my blog, most of the credit i would say go to him.. so THANK YOU.. but it wasn't easy cos we searched for the animations.. pretty difficult la i would say.. haha.. but fun at the same time.. and a sense of satisfaction..

[ He Forgets To Check His Phone.. She Messages Him But He Replied A Bit TOO Late.. Sorry He Says... And Also Wishes All The Best In Her Exams... You Can Do It... ]

m.C.

Today... Friday The 13th....

today.. good day.. finished my video production and really glad that mr lee my boss say it was rather funny and nice.. so that satisfied me.. excellent.. den he was kinda shocked that i manage to finish the video cos i told him on tuesday tat i haven started yet.. den it was durin the exam period somemore.. so ya.. well hopefully we'll be able to win somethin.. its been sometime...

next went to makan lunch with my sistar( Mimi ).. makan banquet.. den went to starbucks for coffee again.. talk a bit and send her home after that.. after that went to drop by andrew's place and uploaded naruto into his comp includin bleach.. so yuppss. he was happy also.. yay.. i bet he is up watchin it now..

Den went to meet up with my coffee mates? haha.. oh ya.. den khim leng gave me a call abt the baller band thingy.. man i still can't thank him enough for buyin it for me first.. now i got the NIKE ones le.. YAYS!!! thank u man..

Den I'm also glad that my pal is satisfied with the poem? hehe.. so i'm happy that my pal enjoyed it... i'm happy today.. even though its said to be an unlcky day today.. but it has been gd la i would say.. so today... excellent day... yay!!!...

From Him To A Special Someone....

I Just Sat Down, And Suddenly I Thought Of You
And Decided To Write A Poem Just For You
This Poem Is Free, You Ain't Have To Pay
So Here I Go With What I Have To Say

You Have Been A Really Good Friend To Me All This While
I Really Have No Regrets Making You As My Pal
There Were Times Where I Was Down And You Were There For Me
And You Made Me Smile By Saying Something Funny

The First Time I Saw You I Thought You Were Cold
But After Knowing You Things Began To Unfold
You Were A Really Warm And Caring Person Right Deep Inside
It Would Be Really Great If People Knew Your Other Side
So Just Share Your Care And Concern To Everyone
I Bet They'll Definitely Put You At Number One!

I'm Really Glad That You've Changed After Secondary School
You Became More Hardworking Which Is Really Cool!
After KNowing You For Over A Period Of Time,
I Had Silly Thinkings Of Making You Mine
You Can Say I'm Crazy And I've Lost My Mind
Well I Guess You're Right, I Think I Did Cross The Line

Life Indeed Does Have Its Ups And Downs
So Girl Just Smile Don Ever Frown
If You Need Someone, I'll Always Be Around
A Promise Is A Promise, And a Promise It Shall Be
So Please Just For Once Just Trust Me.....

Alright Girl Thats All I've Got To Say
You Enjoy Yourself And Have A Nice Day....



m.C.

He Smiles....

today.. today got D@t Test.. jia lat.. draw wrong.. i'm now very afraid that i am goin to fail quite a bit man.. no jokin.. so scared... tml got chem paper... die... i'm drownin.. yesterday jus check the dateline for the video competition... the dateline is on the 13 of may.. which is this comin friday.. i'm so fried.. but i will definitely finish the video by any means.. i mean it.. oh yea..

and so after my CL listenin i went to starbucks again.. bwahaha.. went there wif sis and talk again.. haiz... stress ar she... hehe.. over.... nvm.. hehe.. but no worries this problem sure can settle one.. k? don THINK abt it too much.. really... don get too engross with "_____"...... hor... anyway all da best.. from the bottom of my heart...

{ He Smiles... He Was Told... NOw He Knows..... He Is Happy And Thank Her for Lettin Him KNow...}

He Finds Out......

Today.. jus feel so like kinda troubled.. i feel so upset over yesterday's conversation.. it's been affectin me today.. the whole day.. why??.... have i grown weaker deep inside? i jus don know why i'm so sensitive in wadever was being spoken yesterday.... i think i've grown weaker... wad should i do? its really killin me.. now i jus somehow feel that i'm once again alone...i thought i had found the right person to have a fantastic ommunication with.. didn't know i was that irritatin.. well i jus give up.. but i jus feel that all the fault lies with me.. is like i can find tonnes of reason why i should be blamed... Ouch is the only thing i can say right now..

HAd my test in the mornin today.. it kinda sucked for me... after that went to starbucks with my sistar... had a little chat.. hehe.. a real funny one i would say.. one thing that did not change in her is that she still loves to shop for pens and pencils... haha... sorry sis... can't help it... but i will try to assist her in her love life as much as i can.. in terms of advice and stuff.. to my sis: "DON look down on yourself..." i'll try to be there for you as much as i can...

_________________________________________________________
He took the first step, he made the first move... ]
He thought she knew and understood, but he was wrong... ]
He understood, He Felt, He Cried... ]
He thought maybe what he did was right but got deeply hurt right deep inside... ]
He will do wat is needed.... ]
He will forgive and forget and erase wat is needed.... ]
_________________________________________________________]


m.C.

He WaiTs......

today.. went to pasir ris to go see my baby newphew jerald go and compete in this baby race or crawling competition.. but unfortunatly he did not manage to win anythin.. cos if i'm not wrong the fastest baby came in 4secs plus.. so fast!! but the distance was about 3 to 4 m.. so i think the only way is to try and get ur kid's attention so that he/she will be able to get to you really quick.. but it was worth it goin there to see him.. becoz he is always constantly showin us many funny and cute little things he does...

Tommorrow i'll be havin my physics paper.. hopefully i'll be able to pass? i jus wanna pass thats all.. no further expectations.. i've been failin like crazy for science since the begginin of this yr.... so all the best to me? haiz....

{ He is sorry for the time when he slept and replied her 2 hrs later that mornin.. He is really sorry and is waitin for her to reply him.. He hopes that she is not angry with him.. He Is really sorry... He WaiTs...... }


m.C.

LoVe Is.........

Love Is Always Patient And Kind, It Is Never Jealous... Love Is Never Boastful Nor Conceited, It Is Never Rude Or Selfish.. It Does Not Take Offence And It Is Not Resentful.. Love Takes No Pleasure In Other People's Sins, But Delights In The Truth.. . It Is Always Ready To Excuse To Trust, To Hope And To Endure Whatever Comes....


m.C.

neW Photo shOts....

ok.. today went down to go and get some shots.. the clouds were really pretty.. hella pretty.. so u should go and click the link under my photos... i called today the day.. "the cloud chase"... i think u should jus go and click on it and jus check it out.. the photos will do the talkin from there...

Plus today i jus happen to watch this show called " A Walk To Remember"... it was really nice.. i like the story line.. and mandy moore was really lookin sick.. so i would say the make up was great on her?? her actin was great also.. i don mind watchin it again.. its nice... so i guess if u haven watch it yet i suggest u go try rent the vcd or dvd version.. i watched mine on HBO... ok.. i gtg now.. until den..

m.C.

ThE soNg SuRFer GiRL......

today.. did really nothin much... i think the places that i've so called visited is all around the simei area.. hehe.. most of the time at home.. oh ya.. i cleaned my "baby"( my computer) today.. now she is all cleaned up functionin well.. i bet u r jus wonderin y in da world would i wanna clean my computer.. well from the so called experience i have is that the dirt in the computer somehow causes it to generate heat faster.. well cos the weather has been really hot and bad, plus my computer is most of the time runnin i don think i wan it to catch fire? hehe.. precautions... plus all my moonneeyyy is all given to this "baby" here..
hmm.. in da night went to burger king with my bro.. had our dinner.. parents did not join us cos they had their own dinner.. my eyes really opened when i was at burger king. i saw a really nice lookin girl.. at the counter.. to the guys who is readin this... u should go check her out man.. not hot la.. jus plain pretty.. i think she is a mixed? name is weird and accent is kinda ang moh.. hehe.. but niccee.. btw its simei burger king.. so try to catch.. its a pity i forgot her name.. startin from "S"... so yup...
haiz.. life is so stress ful.. and i'm so freakin lazy to study.. i jus dunno why.. the crappy feelin jus got worst.. very bad.. i think i'll go charge my batteries later so i can go race some car tml.. miss it loads and maybe take some shots again.. of life.. jus hope all this work will help bury all this stupid feelins i have right now.. i dunno but i know its really an ass to feel this way.. WHYY??? nvm...
oh ya.. today i went to get some old songs from the beatles and the beach boys.. kinda nice though.. jus wonderin wad is with the title for today? well its from the beach boys and i would say the song kinda matches how the way i feel now.. so yup...

sOB... Sob...

m.C.

JuS GoT DuMpEd.....

well... wads with the nick? haha.. today.. 1st may.. labour day? nick.. looks like now my GF and i are kinda no longer together but one thing still never changes is that i'm still kinda close to her as ever... so now we are like brothers and sisters.. so yuppss.. actually its not gettin dumped by her la.. jus couldn't think of a tittle? hehe.. but seriouly my greatest apologies are given to her.. sorry that we've gotta part... but i am really glad that u r copin really well.. which is great.. don worry i'll always be there for u.. so no worries..
next.. i jus happen to msg a friend of mine.. jus wanted to talk and stuff but unfortunately my friend was kinda busy but still wanted to entertain me.. i really appreciate that.. thank you.. but it was kinda pity cos my friend send a msg wrongly and i accidently recieved it.. so from there i knew my friend was busy... wad to do.. i was meant to find out i guess.. sometimes i jus dunno.. there r so many things i jus wanna say but rather keep it to myself.. cos i don think its fair to the other ppl feelins to talk so frank here.. but there is one thing which i know is that i hate myself for feelin like crap now... i can't describe this feelin but i know its really wrong to feel this way.. its a mistake... wad have i done??
actually right at this moment i really want to talk to someone.. but jus dunno who.. my friend say it was ok but i jus wanna ease some trouble off my friend.. sorry if u r readin now but jus dun wanna trouble u...
but wadever it is life must still go on no matter wad.. i'm actually in a lot of trouble.. i've not complete my video production yet which is due in may.. oh yea i'm so in deep crap.. exams have started and i've not revise much.. oh yea again.. my D@t folio, i have no chosen iDea YEt.. and its due this tuesday.. oh Yea.. so many things waitin for me to settle.. i have no idea whether i'll be able to cope.. all da best to me den??

WhErE Is dA PeRsOn i'M LooKiN F0R???

Will Be Waitin.. m.C Out....