heart rate of mine jus hanged.. stopped.. slow down.. whatever u call it.. the moment u feel breathless and like someone jus grab ur heart and prevented u from breathin.. the feeling is so hard to explain...
so.. now it feels as though there is a gun pointin to my heart right at this very moment.. u feel scared and nervous thinkin whether the shot will be taken.. u fear, u shiver and u tear.. but, no matter wad u'll always try to put up a brave front jus to convince urself tat u're gonna be jus fine even though the gun is being fired directly at ur heart.. and tat there is an after life after all this pain.. the feelin of a heartache is soo painful and hard to describe.. there is no cure to it.. but jus the person who has the key.. and its a key which u pass the person soo willingly.. with trust and love.. now.. i'm the victim.. i dunno wad i shld do now..
self created problems.. but, i dunno wad to say.. now things aren't turnin out tat wonderful.. someone is busy wit her life and i think jus shut me down or somethin.. another one is makin a decision.. i dunno.. now its all on me again.. and time is somethin.. really somethin.. the more u drag on, the more faster things will change and take its different places.. and if u waste even more time, somehow things might jus turn out even worst den u can ever expect.. its scary..
feel like disappearin again.. wanna run away.. i guess i wasn't meant to love..
[ i know u love me.. and i know u also dun wanna break his heart.. u do wad u wanna do.. change or no change we'll see.. i know u still b there...... but.. as a different person... things will still change.. its ok.. i also dun wanna b unfair to him also.. he has every chance too.. ]
m.C.
应该等待还是离开................................