TodaY... No CoFFee.. ToMoRRoW.. I DUnnO..

today.. is friday.. and.. no coffee?? noooo.... this suck man.. and after school went to follow huda and mimi to parkway parade.. to develop aunty dinie's chosen pictures that was taken durin racial harmony day.. and i'm soo proud that the pictures taken by my camera is very clear man.. haha.. so clear that even the pimples on your face is not let off? haha.. so after doin the photos and all we went to banquet to have our lunch? but i was not hungry a single bit so i skip lunch..

after that huda had cravings for waffles? ice cream at the top kinda waffle? so we stopped by swensens to get the waffle and ice cream.. i think each cost abt 6 plus.. so ordered two.. it was the first time sis was havin it.. i was sharin it with her.. i'm not really keen with ice cream.. so gave most of it to her? glad that she enjoyed it.. we spent quite a bit of time over there so after that makan of dessert it was jus nice for us to go collect the photos.. haha...

so after that i went back, had tuition.. didn't have time to take a little nap.. dammit.. took my dinner and went for bowling.. hahaha.. yea.. its been quite a while since i bowled.. excellent.. haha.. haiz.. i've got shit loads of stuff to do tml.. dammit.. i'm missin the time at starbucks ssooo much.. it seems like i'll not be able to make it there tml.. will i? i really hope tat i'll have the time to make it there tml.. i addicted.. Oh Oo...

songs had been chosen.. for fin's group will be by greenday wake me up when september ends is somewhat close to like the examination period.. so tat is somethin related to school.. next for maxaudios adi's group we'll be playin Goldfinger - Stalker... change of lyrics? so yea....

[ AHHhhh YAaaa.. Soo SORry.. i never check hp.. Sorry for late reply... ]


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We GoT In...

oh yea.. the results are out.. both the bands that i sang for got in for the teacher's day performance.. yay!! excellent news... hahaha... today is pretty much alright.. nothin much i guess.. except for ashley tryin this thing called boycott marcus day?? haha.. but wat the heck.. nice one there though..

chinese test was a disappointment.. time was insufficent.. did not manage to finish a few questions at the back.. yesterday was a real tirin day for me.. had to finish up social studies homework which was tough and learn chinese test.. haiz.. tough.. finally the stress is over? jus for a bit.. common test is comin real soon.. gosshh.. have got to get myself prepared..

D&T.. progress so far? not so good.. the deadline is next tue.. tml no D&t.. both teachers and instructor not in... dunno how i'll be able to meet the deadline.. AV.. mr lee will be sendin the production that fah and i made.. advertisement on eye mo to this canon competition thingy.. so all the best? haha..

Not sure if Coffee day will be carried out tml? my man Khim leng is feelin all stressed up with school.. needs to unwind all the bad shit.. but ashley seems least interested because he says he is not savin any money at all.. so decision lies with ashley?? i dunno... but i'll be definitely goin down because.. i neeeddd the coffee.. hahaha.. aunty dinie has been really nice.. talk to her over sms.. hmm, there is another side of aunty dinie?? oh ya, its all because of this bet over the song lyrics.. I won by the way.. hahaha...

[ I GoT In.. Wanted to Share Good news with u... But, DIdn't wanna disturb you.. U Tired.. Sorry.. ]

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AuditiOn Me...

today is monday, gt back english test results.. heh heh.. did nt bad i would say.. last friday i carelessly left my pencil case in the computer lab after EL lesson.. after school i went back to try look for it.. it was GONE.. pencil case officially lost.. now must find time to go get stationary.. dunno when..

had auditions today.. loads of bands takin part this year.. scary.. i was doin fine for maxaudios but screw up pretty much for the flab team.. so sorry man.. jus couldn't get the rythm right.. sorry FLAB.. i still don find the song nice till now.. ooppss...

so after everythin ended went to century square.. met sis and her sis-in law to be? cool la i would say.. talked and talked.. but most of the things were more or less have to do with sis la.. hehe.. but its finee.. after that met ashley, khim leng, jonathan and yong liang to go get see heng's birthday gift.. we got him gundam action figure? some sort of fix it up urself? so each person had to like pay $7.. i owe jonathan first.. man.. haiz... i still poor.. hahaha.. lackin self disipline i guess... so while we were lookin for this action figure we kinda had our childhood days or memories refreshed with all the little toy cars that we use to play when we were young.. niccee.. its nice to remember all the good times we each had playin this little toy cars.. excellent.. we were so obsessed that we almost wanted to each get one for ourselves.. haha..

it seems like i've gt no D&T tml.. i think i'll be makin a trip down to starbucks? i dunno.. hahaha.. D&T thing is still not confirm yet.. so hopefully don have? Missin coffee so so much..

[ Let's make this last forever.... Yea... ]


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I Forgot...

-Smacks- i forgot all abt my aunty.. i was suppose to help her move house today.. i forgot.. 7.30am was the time.. i was once again lackin sleep.. i slept at 3 the previous night.. haiz.. took a cab down to toa payoh with my bro.. so we were there and all we had to do was jus to watch over some furniture and jus make sure that they don go missin.. cos another aunty of mine had some of her furniture gone missin durin the time when they were movin her stuff.. so yep..

silly me, i dunno wad got into me i went to try to sit on top of this "thing".. i had to climb in order to do that.. haiz.. nvm... dunno how to explain.. silly me thats all.. gt some injuries.. so the stuff came, unpacked them.. i help set up the tele,dvd player and the sound system.. includin my aunts computer.. so in a way it was gd that i was there.. heh heh.. self praisin.. lunch was on my aunt.. cos bro and i did nt pay a single bit..

went back home around 2 pm? crashed.. sleep till 6pm boy.. missed " Pimp My Ride ".. darn... had dinner.. mum jus bought for me this adidas perfume.. cool.. hahaha... so that's abt all.. hopefully i'll be able to remember my lyrics and finish up my maths homework...

[ Treat me like ur ________ plsssss... hahaha... oopps...]


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Mon,Tue,Wed,Thur,Its Friday NighT..

today is the day where i stretched my limits.. i was lackin sleep.. had too many things to do and finish up.. hmm, besides lackin sleep there was something that i was somehow forever lackin of.. MONEY.. its seems forever that i'll be able to pay my class fund.. gosshh.. will try another alternative...

school was normal.. nothin much.. had my lunch in school.. had to meet up with the band to practice for the teacher's day audition.. so we went to jam.. well i would say the practice didn't turn out soo gd, cos adi the drummer wasn't there and i..well, haven remember the lyrics.. haha.. so my bad too.. bt it was alright lahz.. i think... i guess its jus good luck to us on monday then..

so after that hurried down to bedok to meet up with ashley and khim leng to go walk around town.. and khim leng was the one who said he misses town man.. and i got fired like shit sayin that i was the one who wanted to make a trip over there.. victim.. shockin, sadden, fried peanuts.. but wad can i do.. money was carefully spend.. we walked around far east, drank bubble tea...khim leng paid quite a bit for me.. so after that we went to play pool.. awesome time there.. den walked back to far east again to have our makan.. can't help it, food there is good and cheap.. so 2 bucks was all i had left after the pool and makan.. 2 bucks.. how to drink coffee? on that day khim leng was the generous dude.. oh ya, gave some tips on how to sms girls to ashley.. but, not sure whether one of it was ok anot.. hmm..

sooo, we went to raffles place to get our change of trains.. ashley was busy with sms.. suddenly this woman approached him and and ask if she could borrow his phone? so she borrowed and dial several numbers? like some numbers were engaged and she jus continued to dial other numbers? she had a card, card had numbers.. our train came and she was still dialin numbers and callin? ashley tried askin her back for his phone but she jus simply ignored.. i called her also same thing.. like she was mad or somethin.. the way she spoke on the phone also the same.. scary.. i was soo afraid that she might jus lose her mind and jus throw the phone down.. ashley tried to get the phone back with his hand she jus moved the phone in her hand away from his.. we missed our train.. this experience is soo scary and there is soo much more details tat i find it a little bit too long to write it in here.. ask me if u wanna know more.. hahaha..

so in a way i jus came back from coffee... it was great.. couldn't have tasted better.. ashley continued with his initial D game.. his car now has flame burnin at the top.. gd stuff.. i enjoyed my day.. besides khim leng also found a reward.. gd stuff too.. haha.. great day..

[ Got Cut Off.. ]

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ThIs ChApTer OF My LiFe ClosEs..

today is the day where the truth is known to me... today.. i will always remember today.. haha... so school proceeded as usual.. nothin special.. i decided not to go for D&t cos i had loads of work to do.. so i went to starbucks with mimi and huda...

but before that i had to go back home and get mimi pouch.. so i went back first... mimi and huda was walkin around tampines cos huda had to go collect somethin.. so when i was on the way back i thought i saw her.. but i wasn't sure so i happily told khim leng lor.. so i went down and meet up with huda and mimi..But when i went to starbucks "sunshine gal" was no where to be found.. mimi was nice, she went in with huda and bought for me the coffee so while she was buyin the coffee she asked this waitress whether she know this girl who is bubbly and all.. the waitress knew and told her that "sunshine gal" quit becoz she gt into U she was applyin for and wanted to concentrate on her studies.. and the waitress told mimi that the girl's name was CAROL.. den i remembered the very first time. the receipt.. caroline.. so i can now confidently say that her name is caroline becos, i know... hahaha.. so i guess this is the end.. the reason was because that was jus her short name.. but its alright.. at least i know her name rite?

now everythin fits in place so nicely.. really nice.. the receipt.. the time when she was cleanin the table.. everythin.. gt chance bt scared to take.. so too bad i guess.. but i'm happy for her cos she said no school wants her? but she got in.. happy for her.. congrats man.. hahaha.. but one thing is goin to be a definite thing is that i'll be very much missin the smile she showed or gave me.. RESPECT.. this is somethin i will never forget..

and so i guess this chapter of my life ends today.. " sunshine gal " story is closed.. i guess i let fear get the best of me huh.. will be enterin teachers day concert.. scared.. physics test is tml.. scared... loads of stuff to worry and finish.. haiz...

Sis i can't thank you enough for askin wahidah abt sunshine gal.. thanks.. and thanks for closin this chapter of my life for me.. thank you..

[ U Openin New Chapter For Me Ar?? hahaha.. Jus PLayin la.. T.C. Thanks for ur concern... ]


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LAsT WEeK.....

YAk A Tack TAcK.. can't believe a week has jus past jus like tat.. man.. i'm feel soo much betta now.. is like i'm bacckkk... oral went fine and so was the listenin? i dunno.. haha.. this comin week will be a week of tests.. gosshh.. haiz.. dunno whether i can take it anot.. have nt been writin in lately? hahaha.. been lazy and also busy... Oh Oo...

school has been fine.. now i sit in front with md noh durin maths.. it is great.. can "disturb" mrs chen? hahaha.. den also can talk and laugh wif the all time funny guy md noh... RESPECT... gd stuff...

i haf no idea wad else to say bt life is pretty much normal i guess.. now can say tat i've known more ppl? there r actually nice ppl out there.. haha.. haiz.. oh ya.. went to bugis and bought converse shoes.. 70 plus ba.. freakin nt cheap.. i've gt racial harmony on monday.. so can't wait to see wad friends are wearin especially the girls? hahaha...

hope to get some shots on monday.. memorable ones.. i manage 2 cut down the times i've been goin 2 starbucks.. its gd.. i've nt been seein her.. miss tat smile.. sis is pretty much movin on.. i'm also lookin out for her.. so i hope for the best for her..

[ My NumBer OnE FaN.. NIccEe... ThAnKin U... ]

MoRe ReVealed...

today.. was alright i guess.. i read through the stuff tat i've written down durin the period of time i was sittin at starbucks.. the place has indeed become a place where i go and forget all tat is painful to me? i dunno.. i'm soo missin the place and the coffee at this moment.. the smell and the quiet atmosphere tat is all in tat place.. i'm not sure if i'm addicted to coffee at this moment.. i think i am...

i manage to find more abt myself today in church.. and it indeed helped me alot.. i had jus remembered a promise tat i made, a thing tat i promised for a life time.. a goal in my life... and it took me soo long.. but another thing tat i can't remember is how in the world did i manage to get all the patients i had the last time.. i remembered tat i admired this person for his patients and tat is why i decided to follow him, but unfortunately i can't seem to remember this person... hope to remember soon..

MT O'level oral examination is on this comin tuesday.. very worried abt it... hope tat i'll not screw up.. fear is takin over me.. i also realised tat i kinda like girls with nice smiles, after readin through wad i wrote durin the time when i was alone at starbucks.. i think its the smile tat the girl has i find attractive.. the reason is because there was this person whose smile was soo nice tat it made me smile too, even when i was down.. its a feeling tat i can never describe.. but i can say its a feelin tat i hope i'll be able to feel again..

tml will be a start of a new day for me... a new day to get all my stuff into place and turn my words into actions.. all jus to please ppl around me which at the same time makes me happy too.. cos if they are happy, i'll be too..

[ WisH Me LuCk.... ]


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OverALL ReViEw...

Thursday was crap... and so was friday.. i've been slackin in my studies this past few days... i'm nt wad i used to be.. somethin is missin.. and i can say i'm missin somethin really bad right now.. is the smile tat was given to me when i was down... tat smile made me felt really gd.. but i think its all gone already.. sis says i've change loads.. i dunno.. i fuckin dunno.. i'm dam fucked up at this moment...

i visited starbucks many times this week.. and is really a lot... its scary.. sometimes i jus hope tat i'll be able to get back the feelin like how i felt when i saw tat smile.. haiz.. who will be brightenin up my life? missin it right now.. i dunno wad else to say bt stress is every where, i guess its probably here to stay.. my stress..

and i'm not sure whether i missed a few hours to actually see her.. maybe? i dunno.. i will get myself back on monday.. plus i realise i've been more like a bitch? haha.. sensitive.. this sucks.. its bad, i hate it.. i wan the patients tat i had to come back to me.. but.. actually hor, its all me.. all in my head and its whether i wan to do it anot.. will try, will try...

[ You're my last hope to recover what is lost... ]


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TwO CuPs OF CoFFEe...

today.. today i freakin drank 2 cups of coffee.. and i don think i'm feelin so gd rite now? gosshhh.. i've nt ben able to keep myself awake in between lessons.. this is really bad man... i'll try to crash early tonight.. i'm havin some dizzy spells..

today.. finished study hour really early.. did not go for D&T.. no mood.. so while waitin for sis to finish her study hour, i was accompanied by ashley and huda.. so we talked loads and loads of crap.. talkin abt how " DESPERATE" i am.. which is soo not true.. i jus wanna make a new friend by askin for " Sunshine Girl " number? and hell yea i'm desperate for her presence.. i'm not freakin desperate to get into a freakin relationship with her.... Gosshhhh.... the word is being used for the wrong thing again... so while waitin for them to finish i got myself a cup of coffee.. so drank lor.. den there was a change of plan... huda, mimi and i ended up goin to starbucks in simei... so i had to drink coffee again.. AGAIN.. now no moneeyy.. bt nice la the coffee.. so kinda sat there and talk loads abt other stuff ( includin abit abt Huda's life? )... haha.. to me it seemed like the time spend there wasn't enough.. wanted to stay on longer man.. nvm.. there will always be friday.. FRIDAY night to chill..

Takin too much coffee.. everybody has gt their own side of their life.. its interestin.. sometimes we jus think too much abt somethin.. haha.. life.. special.. plus i wanna thank dinie for introducin me the song? it really helped loads.. i soo needed it.. meaningful... RESPECT... plus i also finally understood how it felt when i was tryin to chase "_____".. i think i'm in her shoes right now.. i understand how it feels like to get attention that u don wanna have?.... and also thinkin real hard to reject attention.. and lastly, i know wad i'm gonna do to divert all the funny feelins i have and stuff.. oh yeessss.....

[ Had A Bad Day... ]


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ThE THiRsT FoR LoVe...

Can't believe tat i forgot to bring my chem practical book? had to stand outside the chem lab... first time in my donkey history i stood outside a class or somethin.. but kinda fun la.. hehe.. ooppss...

i've been thinkin since the start of school... wad in the world i do i wan from this friend of mine? this friend of mine is nice la bt wad do i wan? nuts man.. and also thinkin at the same time why did i do stupid things like forcin somethin that was never meant to be? gosshh.. thats why i've decided to call this entry Thirst for love lor... love is soo weird.. it kinda makes u do stupid things that u can never imagine urself doin... haiz.. but i think i will try to divert all this stuff to another place.. i don think its nice to kinda trouble ur friend and all.. so in a way i must be happy that the friend is still there at da moment.. for how long? i dunno.. if this goes on, i don think it'll survive much longer.. so all the best to me i guess...

wad is more weird is this mornin i happen to come across somethin i wrote months ago when it was the freakin first time i went down to starbucks alone.. memories came floodin back.. happy ones luckily.. haha.. and it was good... it was somethin that i wrote abt how relaxed i felt sittin there.. and i think i did write a little bit on life.. and it was also the time when buddy was really really there for me.. hmm.. come to think of it, it seems like everythin is all abt buddy now huh.. hehe.. my my.. haiz..

made a little guess.. i think i'll be seein "sunshine" this comin friday.. if u r curious.. ask me.. i'll tell u.. hehe..

[ Pai Seh Hor.... Sorry.... ]


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ALooNee...

went to study in da mornin.. after that went to church.. after church had dinner at toa payoh and they had pasar malam goin on.. so bought 2 shirts and went back home.. and i was feelin kinda down? i dunno..

so i jus made a trip down to starbucks alone and my mum was kinda supportive of me goin down alone becoz she knew i needed time off by myself.. and it was good.. the coffee was great it seemed as though its the best i've tasted so far in my life.. i enjoyed it.. " sunshine girl" wasn't there.. so i jus took out my book or foolscap paper and jus wrote some stuff down.. i think i actually wrote a poem down while i was at it.. haha.. but don think i'm gonna published it or somethin.. i've got my stuff straightened out and understood wad was happenin around me.. but unfortunately there was still somethin thats botherin me till now.. my buddy.. i have no idea wad is on my buddy's mind.. is like i've lost touch or somethin.. hiaz...

its been quite some time since i felt so light after drinkin coffee.. haha.. i'm sooo missin somethin right now.. and its a HUG.. hehe.. nvm.. i'm crazy.. alrights.. i think tats all ba for today..

[ HE WanTs To KnOw HoW ShE FEeLs... HaS HeR FEeLiNs ToWaRds HiM ChAnGeD? HE MIssEs SoMeThIn Tat ShE UsUaLLy SaY In THoSe SmSes.. WiLL IT bE CoMiN BacK SOon? HoPe AwAItS... ]


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YEeSSS.. It'S FRiDAy....

righteous.. friday is here and indeed all of us have been waitin for this day to come... finally it has arrived.. plus the bonus is tat we have a holiday on monday... youth day is the thing.. so school is jus okae as per normal.. bt i'm havin problems tryin to keep myself awake durin lessons... haiz.. will try somethin out..

so kinda stayed back in school for a while.. till around 2 plus? cos sis and i had to accompany huda till her husband came.. Sis had really weird expressions on her face over somethin.. everything is comin to me like missiles.. den i gt questioned by someone why i broke up and if i would still wanna have her back.. ( questioned by another person ) haiz.. i have my reasons.. went home immediately after sendin sis and tried to get some sleep before meetin Khim Leng and luqman for the dream car exhibit.. bt unfortunately i was only able to get 1/2 hr of rest.. wasn't enough.. i was really tired..

i was late in meetin up with them at the expo.. be4 we went in, we had doubts in whether to proceed into the expo cos the thing looked pretty empty and borin.. but in the end we paid ten bucks and proceeded in.. took some shots of the cars and us and the Ladies too.. although they looked kinda old.. luqman was cool, he started the ball the rollin with all the poses with the cars and stuff.. so we went along too.. pose with the cars.. luqman was the entertainer for the day.. i had a picture taken with one of the ladies.. haha.. i was shocked when she put her hand around my waist, i never put mine on hers, don really find it nice la hor, like no respect like tat.. so yepp.. none of the dudes wanna have a pic taken with the ladies.. plus i think the thing i enjoyed most was laughin together with khim leng and luqman.. we visited this van which had loads of bass speakers at the back, i jus stood in front of it and got blown many times.. KL and LUqman was not wif me, they were far away cos they could nt really take it.. and hell yea it was soo gd that ur heart felt like it was goin to die on u real soon.. our attention was caught by somethin, the RC cars.... they were goin to have a competition on sunday so the tracks were laid there for the ppl to practice till sunday.. and it was a real eye opener for me.. thinkin of gettin one man.. haha.. the car excibit turned out fine actually except for the fact that there was this girl who kept lookin at me, i was jus thinkin whether i know her anot, but no i don remember a thing.. unfortunately ashley was nt able to join us.. he is missin out fun man..

after that went to eastpoint, met up with ashley but too bad luqman was unable to join us.. so had our dinner at KFC and Khim leng and i were laughin hard over " something ".. but too bad, it did nt happen.. played pool, went to starbucks and really chilled out for real.. took some shots.. "sunshine girl" was nt there.. den had this two burger king girls walkin here and there.. khim leng ask whether i know them cos they were like kinda lookin at me and all.. i say no.. haiz...

i have no idea wad is goin on.. girls lookin at me, playin pool also have den i jus wonderin whether i know her anot.. but still i dunno her cos she is definitely older than me.. if this goes on, i'm soo afraid that i might jus become an arrogant jack ass.. must get myself back.. things are changin.. gosshh is it becos of my hair? i dunno lahz.. i've not been communicatin well with my buddy.. is like can't talk like we used too.. and i'm like missin it soo badly right now.. i dunno wad i should do.. i hate myself.. ashley says that i'm flirtin more?? i dunno lahz.. i also can't get the definition of his meanin "flirt".. the amount of girls number that i have in my HP has definitely not increased a single bit.. so i guess that his definition of "flirt" is a little off...

If U R curious with wad we did over there, u can go check the pics out.. "Dream car asia trip" under the "photos" section.. it includes the starbucks shots too.. little bit only.. hope u enjoy it..

[ HE misses, HE hopes, HE wishes That time would go back to the day when they were the closest... WILL that day come again?? ]


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