wat can u do if u jus had to give somethin up to end the biggest mistake in ur life?.... i knw i'm jus abt to give up mine.. to help end the biggest thing...
now i'm jus sooo F***ed up again.. so much bad shit in my life.. its bitter and somehow i'm waitin to taste its sweetness.. even if i may look happy and high at times.. somehow jus deep inside me lies somethin i've been longin to have.. somehow each day as time passes its getting worst and worst and nt getting any better.. the thoughts one will have when u feel lost.. it really sucks to have ppl stepping over ur head calling u bad shit all the time.. and wad u need the most was actually someone to be there to give u a helpin hand and also a pillar to lean on in case u're abt to fall.. and i guess it also sucks to be a pillar to someone who will always need u.. cos sometimes the pillar may jus find the person a lil too heavy and also a burden to take with..
watched the lake hse already.. managed to watch it.. yea, it was gd.. nt bad of a show.. so headed to esplanade to watch the fire works.. yea, it was great.. but, wad was lackin was the company and the special person u wish u could have taken along with u.. somehow it jus took me back to the time where i had to write 10 things i hate abt this particular person.. and in the end the outcome still turned out as praises for that person.. i can't remember where is the 10 things i hate abt u.. it was nice actually.. but, wad could have been even more perfect was having the person u love in ur arms and enjoy the beautiful fireworks.. wow.. perfecto.. met some old sch ppl over there also.. and i found the delorean time vehicle.. this time round there were two of them.. my my..
sch was ok today.. jus a lil tired with life.. nothin is happenin.. doors closin up one after another...
[ hmmm.. wad happen to the lil msg's for me after every entry?... seems to be disappearing one after another.. blanks.... ]
m.C.