CuT My HaiR... NiCe?..

alright!!.. so this is my new look.. cool?.. hahaha.. met up with mimi yesterday.. so while i was with her.. i had this crazy idea.. it jus came.. I WANTED to cut my hair.. oooohhh yea...

so this is the outcome of my new hair do.. awesome.. the pics here are taken mimi.. cos i was wit her mah.. den first person to see.. nvm.. anyway.. this hair do.. love it.. its sooo cooling tat i get high often.. so its easy.. awesome.. yea!!!

not much to say.. things finally surfaced.. i finally know how she felt.. thank heavens.. she ans me and told me things.. thank you...

[ LOve As LonG As YoU caN.. ]


m.C.

OuR PaGe NuMBeR iS ...............

new chapters.. new beginnin.. so is that wad makes our life a more and fruitful one?.. as in it gives us a track of the dates and times to wad we have been doing.. the things we enjoy, we love, somethin to remember and all.. so is this how we put life in.. as in is this how we describe lifes of our own?.. yea.. i guess so.. hehe..

smile.. yea, i'm smilin a little today.. so wad did she mean by me havin a new chapter or openin it or wad so ever.. i mean.. this is so nice la.. hearin her say that.. heh heh.. so nice.. check this out.. somethin like we have our own chapter and somethin abt me closin it?.. god, this is sooo cool.. anyway i'm never EVER closing any chapter that we've started.. i hope i gt this issue here right.. cos i wasn't really sure abt wad was written on her side.. so makin a guess here.. sorry if i gt it wrong..

so today helped ashley with his computer stuff.. in the afternoon.. after all that, it was around 7 plus den headed down with cherlie to changkat CC.. hmmm.. see basketball match.. actually it wasn't really abt me la, she ask me accompany her.. see..... err... her friend.. ahh.. yas yas.. soo anyway jus accompany her for a while.. den i headed home after that.. her friends were comin down and during that time she had another group of her friends there too.. so don think wanna disturb.. =).. cos i dunno them?.. ahahahaaha.. anyway glad that she is alright now.. i guess la hor.. no worries.. anytime la.. even though it seemed like my time wasted its ok.. no charges... and.. don call me bro la, or dude la or dunno la.. feels WEIRD.. hahaha.. somethin nicer maybe?..

my thoughts.. i guess sometimes ppl jus wanna know the truth towards everythin.. like no hidden charges or hidden surprises.. ppl jus wanna know everythin.. no lies but jus nothin but the truth.. i still can't seem to find the ans of lies.. like, why do ppl blow up so badly after hearin that they are being lied to?.. is it because time of their's are being wasted on un-important things or events.. or feelings cheated.. i dunno.. i'm yet to find out this ans.. ans to y ppl take it soo badly..

[ My Pages of us are always written down.. How abt urs?.. wad's ur page filled with..? Wad's ur story?.. How are u gonna fill my or our chapter?.. hmm... wad's gonna happen.. =) ]



m.C.

SeaRcHin FoR ThE CuRE...

i've been searchin high and low for this cure to my foolishness.. but... ehhhh.. to no avail.. nothin..

had a meet up with cherlie.. and before that i met mimi.. nothin seemed to be able to make me high and smile like i wanna.. missed it.. miss her.. miss everythin.. somehow i jus regret questionin all those qns abt how she feels for me and all.. i shld have been happy.. i mean, i gt her company and all.. dreams almost made possible.. i shld have not even bother whether she loves me more than a friend anot.. now goin at this rate, i somehow just wanna lie to myself abt everything..

I just wanna lie to myself..

[ Bury Me UnDeR.. I JUsT WaNna Be LOvEd.. DrEAm CiTY.... ]


m.C.

BusTeD....

came back really late yesterday.. gt really busted for that.. no kidding... it wasn't a really good thing la hor.. it sucked like crazy.. scoldin was one of the worst ever.. hmm... i think i'm getting a little out of my hand myself.. i dunno wad to say.. i'm spechless myself..

Although i did have my high times yesterday... so i head down to bugis yesterday together with KL and gim wei.. yeapp.. so went to sim lim square.. bought the fan with light for my computer.. i still have no idea when i wanna get my computer clean... like very lazy to do like tat.. haiz.. den i aso have got to hav it reformat really soon.. and i still dunno when is the time to do it.. haiz.. so many things to consider..

anyway back to the high times.. was in search of present for someone.. so we went to this building that had loads of female stuff.. and there was only one lift and loads of stair cases.. and wad in the world we ended up doin.. pretending to become SWAT team ppl.. hahaha.. make a fool out of ourselves.. hahaha.. although i do have to admit it was kinda fun.. heh heh.. its lame but fun.. den it somehow became more foolish when there happened to have ppl comin down or goin up the staircase.. cos we were somehow caught in the act.. the shops are really small there but not bad la actually.. so it is PreTTy cool actually.. girls shld actually go check it out or somethin...

so after that head on to starbucks.. jus chilled there.. played psp.. 5 guys takin turns to play 2 psp's together.. rather fun la.. den gt this couple at the back i think.. man, it was super high time drama.. the woman was like rather at the highest tone of her voice scoldin the man or somethin.. i dunno la.. some money issue.. loads of commotion goin on over there.. and i was really shocked to know that there was actually ice coffee ice blend.. and sharks it tasted really good.. it was AWESOME.. hahaha.. yea.. i think 5 plus ba.. my money is goin out like crazy.. haiz.. i dunno wad to say.. den at the mrt train also gt high times.. cos it was once again the pressure of thinkin whether to go to 85.. and.. in the end headed there that was why i ended up goin back home late.. had cindy and ashley come down.. so during the journey there.. once again.. HIGH TIMES... laughin running again.. den.. once again.. i was running to the bank area to draw money.. and when i turn my head back.. they were GONE.. i told mysef.. AGAIN??? they usually like to do this disappearing act.. so anyway.. met them after that.. had no idea where they go.. but they were sweating as ever.. hahaha.. oh well.. so after that makan.. talk talk.. played psp again.. so yea...

before i slept that mornin.. i had loads of things goin through my mind.. loads.. her.. me.. everythin u named it under the love catergory i had that in my mind.. hmmm.. i had the longest thinkin den and was because i wasn't able to use the computer and loads of thinkin was done.. still could nt find any ans..

[ My SiLence SoLuTiOn.. ]


m.C.

ThE TRuTH..

sometimes in life.. jus wanna be loved.. treated with this special privilages.. things that only ur GF or whoever partner can give.. hmm, yea sounds like i'm desperate or somethin.. but, all i want is just to be treated special and given special attention and all.. wanna be loved.. and also the sounds of the three words.. I LOVE YOU..

even though in life u thought u gt it all... sometimes it isn't really that perfect afterall.. the question jus came back to me after talkin to my friend.. all the qns.. jus really activated this section of me.. this section where we call it the love department.. another friend jus asked me y i bother soo much.. i have no idea myself.. i feel i've been unfair.. jus thinkin only abt myself.. like wad i want things to be like.. i guess i hate it.. i jus wanna have someone who i love dearly and returns me wadever necessary.. but i guess never in life that is ever possible.. cos there isn't a real balance to things.. like some of them might say life is unfair.. i don wan any charity love.. i want love from deep within.. like u mean the things u say and not say for the sake of makin one smile.. say it because it makes u feel good and its the honest truth u're talkin abt..

i guess wad i'm expectin is too much from wad i have.. its scary how my mind can go to such a state.. Just wanna know whether she loved me more than a friend before.. like whether she loved me the way i loved her before.. there are alot of qns and thinkings.. its hard and tough.. its painful.. so does pain actually help one become a stronger person?.. i have no idea..

someone once said.. do u know wads worst than the fear of speaking the truth, it is the fear of uncovering it.. oh, i'll take that.. hmm..

[ i'm sorry i gt u into all this.. i know u're rather angry and pissed abt this.. i'm sorry.. ]


m.C.

3090.... i remembered.. heh heh..

today.. jus gt a pair of jogging shoes.. so yea!!.. hopefully is gd bye fats.. hmmm.. i must.. must be discipline.. i hope.. hahaha.. oh oh oh oh.. ok..

so today.. head on to queensway wit mum to buy shoes.. den head on to IKEA to look at stuff there... and, YEASS.. showed her the blinds that i fell in love with.. hahaha.. yea!!!.. now jus hope tat i can buy it.. hope hope hope... hmm.. haiz.. no money.. anyway.......

so after that i head on to town to meet KL, Gim Wei, Teck Wun, and yong liang.. it was jus meetin up and all.. window shoppin.. the usual things.. den i saw this situation.. both guys were wearin the same tee..!! and this guy in front of me was with his friends den he say " ALAMAK , BAJU SAME.. " something like tat la.. he was tellin his friends.. hahaha.. AWESOME.. so weird.. but, cool.. den saw this gal.. weird way of walkin.. KL know the story behind it.. guesses and all abt y she was walkin like tat.. hahahaha.. ok.. now that isn't really nice of me to comment on her hor.. hmmm, now i'm thinkin, if i were to look at ppl as weird, ppl too will look as me as weird too.. i mean, it does happen.. hahaha.. jus think, two ppl who don't speak the same language meets and when their mouths open, both of them will jus think "hey, he is weird" somethin like tat la.. ok, i also dunno y i'm talkin abt this issue here.. alright!!.. next....

on the MRT train.. this dude.. had too much to drink.. he.. was definitely and totally K.O.. friends were like helpin him and carryin him and all.. den after a while he began to puke.. so, there was vomit on the train, ppl around who were helpin him after upon seeing him vomit also felt like vomittin too.. the scene was dam awkard man.. i dunno how to say.. after that someone hit on the train's emergency button.. so the train somehow never move.. it jus came to a stop.. and after all the commotion, thought things were more or less settled.. thought we were able to move off .. but unfortunately, "NO".. the ppl in charge of the station had to restart the button in order to allow the train to move again.. so i learnt somethin today while onboard the train.. passengers were like lookin at the drunk guy and his friends.. oh my, he was drunk alright.. indeed.. wad a scene.. my first sight seeing a person in a drunken state..

anyway.. this ppl my friends.. hai yooo.. had somehow made me to go down to 85.. no force i know bt it was pressure la.. anyway it was all gd goin down.. no regrets.. so somehow all gt high while walkin to the market.. hahaha.. dam high.. sweatin i was during the high climax.. i was somehow runnin and also dancin at the same time.. hahaha.. it was guys talk.. the talk went on and ended abt 3.30am.. it was then we decided to head home..at the same time i was afriad that my mum would wake up at 4am and find me missin.. if that happens.. i'm screwed.. but, i was good.. i told her i'm goin there.. hehe.. so.. i'm good.. oh yea.. hahaha...

i enjoyed today.. good stuff.. anyway.. i did it.. i memorised it.. CHICKEN THE CHINA, THE CHINESE CHICKEN, YOU HAVE A DRUMSTICK AND UR BRAIN STARTS STICKEN.. hahaha.. WooOOOHoOOOO.. man, this is awesome.. i remembered it fully now.. heh heh..

[ KNow more abt wad love consists of.. the things one partner feels and all.. and how the other partner feels.. its like vice versa.. so there are many things to the word love and the thing called relationship.. somethin like trust.. and loads more.. =) its ok.. i hav to go through all this.. its mine to choose.. i chose this.. i love you.. i'll go through this if it takes me alot of pain and heartaches.. i don mind.. ]


m.C.

TinGLes...

have u ever been in love?.. love.. the one that gives u the heart aches.. the feelin like ur heart is gonna die on u anytime.. and the sudden strength in all the muscles around you jus seem to be in full force.. the mind jus blanks out and jus focus on somethin.. somethin like a heart attack..

dam.. today.. screw up.. jus a few mins ago.. i jus gt jealous.. yea.. no kidding.. its really weird.. i think this is one of the worst i felt so far.. is like hit maximum climax.. felt angry.. at same time sad.. at the same time thinkin of anger.. like angry.. hahaha.. sharks.. this is soo awesome.. is like i know how mimi felt... hahaha.. i seldom get tat jealous.. i mean.. this.. this is crazy..

anyway.. its cool.. cos i love her like crazy so that is the effect.. i'm like doin some experiment or somethin.. hmmm.. jealous.. sometimes one must really know how to get things back in shape when in jealous mode.. its scary cos ur mind jus gets clouded and u jus focus on that somethin.. u don wanna think out of the box.. u jus think that u are in the right and that person is wrong.. like u jus never think abt wad u r doing.. i realise that if u r not able to control this, u can go nuts.. yea..

anyway.. had a long chat with cherlie.. its been quite a while since we met up.. it was all good.. all the catchin up was done.. i think.. shld be ba hor...

JEALOUS>> AWESOME>>!!

[ i know more now.... ]


m.C.

Blinded By CuRioUS SighT..

today.. the main issue.. the funniest thing.. was me.. i was the joke of the day.. and u know y?.. i almost lost my marbles because of my curiousity in wonderin how the gal look like.. dunno la who say she pretty.. den it happened after alightin the bus.. so i was like so bothered i keep lookin and walk.. den never see wad is in front of me.. i hit the pole or to say this stand at the bus stop.. it was.. it was...... embarassin laaaaa... my friends were like laughin at me like crazy.. ah peh, young ladies, ppl there eatin all can see wad i did la.. see to much den kena hit by the thing in front of me.. and dam, thank heavens my tummy is slightly out so that is why my marbles were safe from the accident.. when i hit the thing, i like bend over and say " ahhhh~hHhh..!!' for one moment i thought somebody had jus kicked me there.. and sharks, it hurts.. dam.. and jus to let u guys know.. someone from my group told me the girl wasn't that good lookin.. i couldn't see her face la thats why i was so curious.. ahhhh..!!! ouch... btw, we were headin to 85 market..

so yesterday as in wednesday.. i met my fav.. hehe.. yay!!.. be4 that suppose to have a treat from mimi, fah and syazwan.. but, don have.. cos i guess it was me that kinda screw everythin up.. ahh, forget it.. so anyways.. seen loads of ppl.. familiar faces.. ppl.. GIRLS.. hahaha.. ok, they jus gt hotter.. and some became even more prettier.. hahaha.. its actually kinda nice cos somehow or rather u see how they change.. from innocent and childish lookin ppl to a more mature lookin young adults.. hehe.. compliment... but, i'll stick to who i like now.. she's good.. hehe.. hor?.. wad do u think little one?.. hehe..

anyways.. i bought cigrettes yesterday.. i dunno whether i gt the spellin right.. oh well, it was cool.. i jus bought on behalf of my friends.. hahaha.. so it was all cool went well.. that guy like asked for my IC.. i showed him.. next thing i knew.. he smiled at me.. cos for the fact i jus turned 18.. hahaha.. anyway.. i'm such a big show off flashin around my IC.. dam, i was soo confident.. hahaha.. woOoOOOO.. ok.. marcus= show off.. hahaha..

anyway.. while sendin her back yesterday.. it was dam good... it wasn't for the fact i saw terry and amanda la.. but, for the fact she did not let go of my hand.. hahahaha.. yea!!! this is soo cool.. i dunno wad to say.. awesome.. so like in a dream or somethin.. hehe.. oh well.. dunno how to say la.. only I WILL KNOW.. hahaha... *flashin Back*.. WoOOoHOoOOOO....

[ NoThIn can replace u.. somehow or rather.. even though i may look at chicks.. i'm still soo attached to u.. you R D BEST.. yea!!!.. WoOOoOHoOoOO.. i'll put my unhappines behind me, u shld too..!! hehe.. i'll be here.. right here.. standin in front of u jus waitin.. ]


m.C.

My ApoLoGieS....

mistakes.. everyone of us makes mistakes.. i guess the mistakes i made can somehow never end.. it jus keeps goin and goin.. i really dunno wad to say..

my job.. my previous job.. me, as usual i'm was always late.. ok, i'll give u a ratio of how i'm late and on time.. its 10/2.. yea.. tat bad.. i screwed up.. i guess wad i'm rather unhappy abt is myself.. my cousin intro me this job.. cos he knows the boss.. and because of the fact that i'm always late she wasn't really happy, she told my cousin la.. den he wasn't really happy abt it either.. oh gosh.. that was like ages or somethin.. i dunno la when my boss call him or somethin.. i like feel so bad cos pulled him in or somethin.. cos he was nice la to intro me this job den i screw up.. like make him look bad because of me.. i guess the main issue is here.. bringin him down.. haiz.. sian sian..

somehow i jus feel kinda fu*ked up now.. i dunno who in this world should i be mad at man.. dam.. cos my parents know abt it.. got scolded.. i dunno wad to say.. screw up la.. i like owe him la.. hmmm.. Fu*k..

never in my life.. i guess i totally hate makin ppl i love upset, angry and disappointed.. whatever things u name it that makes one hate u.. i hate makin that person feel that way.. i dunno wad to do now.. it sucks la.. jus sucks.. i jus like wanna apologise to him.. hmmm.. like i'm nt appreciative man.. oooooo.. dam.. why the fu*k does this things happen in this workin industry??!!

when will i be ready.. a change..

[ my hates.. qn me.. ask me.. don forget to love me too.. ]


m.C.

I'm 18.. LeGaL.. AWESOME...

i'm a big kid now?.. awesome.. yea, i've hit my legal age.. hahaha.. this is sooooooo excellent.. hmm, my mum say " you ar, every month always gt new word to use" hehe.. cos now i like usin the word awesome.. hahaha.. yea!!!

aight.. so this was the chalet i spend my birthday in.. ANG MO CHU man.. woOoO.. i think its called bungalow.. so the whole buildin was where i spend my weekends and celebrated my birthday.. excellent..

it was all good la i would say.. but, jus kinda pity that my cousin was rather left out la.. somehow both families don really match up tat well.. cos one is shy den the other one noisy.. he was jus tryin to be friendly.. but, like kena ignored.. hehe.. cos when he say "hi" they dunno wad to ans him.. hahaha.. ah yoo.. feel bad for him.. hmmm.. wad to do wad to do.. hehehe..

on sunday.. the whole building was left to me.. under my charge.. cos friends came over.. chilled.. drink.. watch movies.. i brought my dvd player down.. so watchin movies wasn't a problem, i had loads of movies.. excellent ones.. hahaha.. so friends came over, and that was when u could like see ppl tat had potential to become house husbands..!! hahaha... cookin, washin wadever u chores u name at home u could see the dudes doin it.. awesome.. so maybe i'll jus point form wadever funnies i can remember..

* wasted my money, paid 20 bucks for 20 pieces of chicken.. ordered too lil satay.. jonathan's self marinated chicken tasted better and was soo much cheaper than mine.. but, the food wasn't wasted.. all was finished..

* gim wei, too high.. over the size of the building or the bungalow.. was dancin and practically runnin here and there.. topless.. hahaha.. funny posin can also be seen in the pics..

* everybody did their part in the cleanin up.. and, it was cool cos can see that ppl care loads abt one another.. excellent..

* ashley.. hahaha.. too much to drink.. face was really red.. played the number game.. awesome.. he gave his first time.. lovely isn't it.. hahaha.. his first chalet, first drinkin session, first vomit session too.. hahaha.. first time see him get drunk.. hahaha.. everbody gave their concerns to him cos he wasn't lookin really too good after the drinkin game... he is the MAN for tat night.. Party ON..

* the two dudes who didn't get a shut eye.. khim leng and me.. wooOoOO..

* victims of vomit.. gim wei, jonathan and ashley.. toilet had pungent of bitter sweet memories.. WoOoOOhOoOO.. basin was choke cos toilet bowl wasn't made the first choice for vomit aim.. hahaha.. AWESOME..

* as for me.. 4 cans of beer.. mixture of a lil vodka.. nt drunk.. phew.. i think i didn't drink alot ba.. that y can make it.. hahaha.. oh, khim leng finished the shoes for me.. teck wun.. i think he drink quite alot lehz.. hmmm.. cool.. he wasn't drunk.. but, fell asleep.. hahaha...

* girls were there too.. * winks *

* ashley, slept on the floor, first to crash last to wake up, uncountable toilet visits.. yong liang had the whole master bedroom to himself.. hahaha.. winner for tat..

* all was good.. the only thing that sucks.. time.. too little time cos only one night.. hehe.. loved it..

AND.. i also wanna thank all those to wished me happy birthay through different means ans ways.. appreciate it loads.. really nice of you guys.. and also the gifts.. love em.. and to natasha who called me jus to sing birthday song.. hahaha.. also very nice of u to do that.. hahahaha.. and, cindy for the choice of present for me.. really nice.. all my friends la who came down.. party wit me.. WoOoOO.. it was awesome.. THANK YOU..!!!


I HAD A PIMPIN GOOD TIME....

[ thank u for the birthday greetings.. all three.. all completed..!! woOoOO.. MISS YOU.. hehe.. my light.. =) ]


m.C. --> 18 yrs old..

DarLinG NiCe..?

yesterday.. all my trouble seem so far away.. oh yea, crap crap crap.. ok.. was out with her yesterday.. i was half an hour late la.. so late man.. so late.. goodness.. i made her wait for me.. ahh yoo.. i feel sucky la.. half an hour.. OMG.. ok, i soo like wanna make it up to her.. i gt this present for her.. haiz, always forget la to pass to her.. hmm, should i get another somethin for her?.. like shop for it or somethin.. hmmm.. oh well.. YEA!!! i think i should.. awesome.. can i complain?.. she always bully me.. i think.. should be ba.. hmm.. i dunno la.. now the score is like 6-0.. hai yoo.. will i be able to score at least one??.. hmm.. i think i need a coach for this thing.. hor?.. darling wad do u think?.. hehe... the tittle i know sounds a bit weird, well i think i'm gonna get use to this thing like askin.. darLing nice?.. hehe.. was askin her whether the shoe nice anot la.. but, i like askin like this lehz.. awesome.. hehe.. loved her company.. love it!! want more.. i do!! hey, i'm like awesome la, i share wit u wad i see, hope it doesn't change abt wad u think of me.. more comin up i guess if u don mind hangin out with me.. hehe...

next.. today.. hellooooo fats.. goodness.. its been a real murder man.. i jus merely played basketball for half an hour or 15 mins i was like half dead.. no kidding.. its sucks.. now my stamina is like not back to zero but -1 or somethin.. or even worst... hahahaha.. awesome.. hahaha.. was having the game with see heng, teck wun and khim leng.. so yeapp.. had macdonalds after that.. oh well, nothin loss nothin gain.. cool.. hahahaha.. wad the hell...

having the chalet on fri.. wit my family.. i've gt to get my ass up tml and head out wit my dad to go buy all the makan stuff.. dad has gt the van.. things would be sooo much easier now.. oh yeaa...!!! "ang mo chu" here i come..!!!

someone once told me.. we must be confident of ourselves.. its somethin like we should not try to be someone we're not.. jus be confident of who we are.. believe in urself.. i guess for the fact this person said this is because he or she is being like acted as.. like ppl acting as them or somethin.. hmm, i guess there are ppl out there who aren't confident of themselves.. i guess they shld be confident of how they look and who they are.. cos everyone is somehow unique in a way.. there is always somethin in you that no one has.. that is wad makes everyone of us special in many different ways.. is somethin like our thumb prints will always be different from the rest.. believe in urself..

[ I will.. if u allow me to.. i will remember.. =) ]



m.C.

ShOoPiNG....

today.. today.. ashley is the boss.. our lao da.. hahaha.. he has the card.. he has the money.. he's got the honey.. he has all goin on.. and dam.. he is a homme.. i think i should have gt the spellin right for that.. homme.. hahaha.. oh well..

so went to visit ikea first.. had hotdogs.. nice la.. but, too little for me.. there is somethin i realise different abt me.. i ate very little.. woke up late.. den didn't feel really hungry at all.. cool.. so went to walk around ikea.. jus the three dudes.. soo cool man.. hahaha.. guys + ikea.. wad the hell u get?.. house husbands... hahaha.. woOoO.. jus playin... i think i wanna get this window blind there man.. so niceee.. ahhh.. dunno how to explain.. jus gives the room a soft look.. which is soo mice.. jus love it..

head to queensway after that.. ashley bought this shirt.. big.. awesome.. like homme la.. like u know rapper or somethin.. i know!! 50 cent.. hahaha.. the diff is muscle part la.. hehe.. i'm no diff either.. hahaha.. he bought a pair of canvas for KL to draw.. den we head to orchard after that.. well, i was kinda an asshole.. ashley was singin, made fun of him man.. i took out my wallet then thew 10cent around his feet region.. hahahaa.. ok, tat is evil.. hehe..

went to orchard after that.. met julian.. he came along wit us.. was all good.. den jus window shop.. ash bought another shirt.. hmm..oh ya, love the jokes at the belt shop.. julian bought the LED belt.. dunno how to call it, it can like display msgs man.. cool.. jokes were dam nice.. precautions abt the belt.. points to take note and all.. hahaha.. den went to bucks.. chilled.. head home after that.. man, i was home before 12..!!! yea!!! awesome..

[ my wait.. hehe.. wait to see u.. =) ]


m.C.

I've Been GooD... Really...

today.. i've been good... yea.. been really really good..

i think my entries are gettin shorter and shorter everyday i guess.. one of the most simple reason is because i've been wakin up really late and i guess its really true that half the day is gone.. even though night life is cool but mornin stuff has jus gone bye bye.. sharks.. scary indeed.. oh man.. half the day gonee..

today.. woke up at around 3.. den meet fin.. met mimi on the way.. went to nat chalet.. hmm.. pity her la.. cos is like the last time i left that area saw her so lonely.. ah yoo.. tml will be a better day.. =).. cos there will be more ppl comin down mah.. so yea.. hahaha... chill natasha.. more ppl comin down.. not me la, but yea more friends of urs comin down.. cool..!!

went to meet ashley, khim leng, teck wun and see heng.. makan makan.. i think i put on loads man.. sharks... woOOoOO.. fatty me... i'm gainin weight man..!! hongster tips 101.. cool man.. hahaha.. oh gosh.. need tips?.. i'll see wad i can do.. hahaha...

[ u free.. i'm askin u out.. officially.. wed.. hope u can get back to me asap.. =) ]


m.C.

Its $189.!!! BuY?.. 200GB.. BUY LA..!!!

its been really crazy.. this is soo cool.. visited the IT fair yesterday.. bought a 200GB external harddisk for $189.. and its seriously worth buyin it.. hahaha.. cool man.. cos other brands like seagate was selling 120 GB at $169.. so u tell me.. worth it?.. btw, its maxtor that i bought.. and its workin really fine.. hahahaha.. yea!!!

can still remember the experience yesterday.. dam funny la.. hahahah.. saw hot chicks.. surprise?.. so am i.. hahaha.. oh wad the heck, i'm happy cos i got my portable HDD.. and that is way awesome man.. i do feel the pich though cos i bought it with all my hard earn money.. aaahhh.. oh well.. its good.. i have to convince myself that.. hahaha...

met justin.. and sharks.. i haven develop the pics as promised.. shait.. i tihnk i better go develop it asap.. yea!!.. asap..

after that.. walked around suntec with ashley and his friend lor.. hmmm... its alright la.. nvm.. and after buyin everythin.. i was jus left wit $2.50.. bought dinner wit that.. became hungry durin the night.. hahaha... had macdonalds at 4 am.. hahaha.. excellent..

[ IT feels good to hear that i'm important.. =) ]


m.C.

The Missing laughter...

hmm.. mimi say my laughter has gone missing.. my smile has disappeared.. my jokes have gone into hiding.. well... i guess its true.. hmm.. i really dunno what has got over me.. hmm.. love can really do loads la to someone i guess.. hehe.. i would say at this very moment i'm in a rather good mood.. i have no idea why, and i really can't recall who got me into this mood man.. sharks.. but anyway.. its all good.. love it.. feels really good..

i guess its probably for the fact that i've found an old song that i've been longin to find.. i found it.. this song caught my interest is because of the american pie movie.. can't recall which episode, but i kinda love the song.. nice.. and, i'm listenin to all the old songs... somehow i think its because it took me back to the time where i was really young.. those memories i guess jus got me in the mood again.. so yea.. cool...

wad i did today.. accompanied cindy to her art school as promised.. yea!!.. so its all good.. had sushi after that.. i guess she isn't really really that bad la after all.. dunno why she wanna make herself look bad.. but, somehow her company wasn't the only thing i enjoyed la.. hahaha.. cos, got this japanese waitress.. woOoO.. cool man.. so cute.. i dunno how to communicate to her.. but her facial expressions jus really caught me.. so every time she serve our table it would be really funnieee.. i would jus smile and she also la.. cool man.. so cute.. hahaha.. her actions jus cute and funny la... oh well.. at least somethin there worth rememberin.. oh ya, i almost left my house keys there... lucky the person cleanin up the table gave me back in time.. pheww.. if not, i really dunno wad is goin to happen man..

met mimi around 9 plus 10 like that.. pass cd.. den met my folks at bucks.. awesome.. it was a treat.. cool.. den head home after that.. stress la my mum that y got free chillin.. hahaha... can't wait to visit the IT fair tml.. yea!!

what i have learned today.. well.. people have their own secrets.. feelings they have all kept inside them.. and even though they did manage to get it off their chest, it will always somehow stay inside them... get it off their chest as in telling someone.. but it would always be there inside.. u can never erase them clean.. i guess this is somethin where we call lesson learn?.. i guess if things happen, they somehow really happen for a reason.. reasons that we might never understand, reasons that have no answers, reasons maybe for the fact it will help make us stronger from this process, reasons that gives us chances to self reflect on what we've been doing and the outcome of this unfortunate happenin, there are so many things we're never able to explain.. even if we did, there will somehow be tonnes of ans.. i guess that is why we have the sentence I HAVE NO IDEA.. life is complicatin, and life can also be simple.. its how you look at it.. the angle that you choose to look at it from.. Complicating or simple, good or bad.. u decide.. its never the end till the day you stop breathin..


[ i dunno la.. JUS sweet to be loved by you lor.. simple right?.. hehe.. love me love you can liao la.. vice versa.. =) ]


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Selfish....

The Truth..

Selfish Thoughts..

Selfish Me..

Selfish Love..

Pocket Love..

Self Centered Love..

SiCk...

sleep.. we need sleep.. i need sleep.. sleep and try not to feel too sick.. been sleepin loads yesterday.. its crazy.. haiz.. sick sick sick.. sucks being sick.. love sick, physically sick, mentally sick whatever sickness u name it.. i'll have it.. slept loads yesterday..

hmmm.. i think now i can officially say that if i were to not have enough sleep i'll not be in the bestest mood.. oh well.. its true i guess.. so does it actually apply to everyone else?.. hmm... does it? hmm.. ok..

hmmm.. it kinda sucks though knowin ppl talkin crap abt u.. hmm.. not say crap la but although its true don have to like say until soo bad behind ppl's back.. sharks.. lucky i'm nt that bothered abt it.. but, at the rate this person is doin things i feel that its not gonna do any good to this person.. tryin to put on an act and all.. i'll prove u wrong man.. oh well, jus screw u lahz..
" YOU CAN SAY WAD YOU HAVE TO SAY, COS MY MIND's MADE UP ANYWAY, ALL THAT BULLSHIT U TALK MY WORK ALOT, BUT ITS NOT GONNA WORK TODAY.."

troubled i am with the feelings i have.. still attached i feel towards you.. can't let u go and go back to the state where we once were that is friends.. i still wan and hope to be with u.. if only u'd say yes.. that is all i'm feeling.. but, its wrong i know... i'm jus fillin u up with more troubles thats all.. and i don like that.. sometimes i jus feel guilty doin so.. u may not feel the same way as how i do.. its ok.. i'm sure u don know how i'm feeling now.. i understand.. =) sorry for troublin u...

[ *Staring Into Blank Space* motionless.. i wanna turn back time.. ]



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WoO~Oo~hoO~oO....

hmmm... ok.. so today went with andrew to appeal for TP.. i feel the chances of me gettin in is somehow definitely way off man.. way way way off.. but, wad the heck.. jus try my luck.. so yea.. hope la.. jus hope tat all goes well.. haiz.. sian..

den gim wei joined us after that.. he was kinda late though but it was all because he went back to take money or somethin.. but he wasn't there for the appeal but jus go there to join us since afterall i'm goin wit him to SP.. so yea.. all was good la somehow or rather.. so after that went to simei ITE.. andrew went there to register.. cos somehow its better to lock a place or somethin.. for me? i've gt my place there already.. jus waitin for me that all.. wad i couldn't believe is the place.. i guess i saw the wrong group ba.. childish of some sort is wad i saw.. haiz.. seein them like tat wasn't really pleasant to the eye la.. cos is like we went there to register den this guy was like kneelin on d chair spinnin side to side.. its a computer chair.. so is like, u know wad i mean.. den he is definitely in the school is because he was in uniform.. sharks.. how? how? how?.. hmmm.. hope this isn't the behaviour of everyone man.. sharks.. btw, jus found out ITE also gt wireless network throughout the campus.. cool.. tested it wit psp.. cool stuff..

it was a rather long walk la from the mrt station to the ITE.. den it was bloody hot.. the field outside the campus somehow caught fire.. den can see this 2 ppl tryin to put out the fire.. den after that met khim leng at bedok platform.. den jus head to SP straight.. head to queens way after that.. see shoe and makan.. andrew didn't join us though.. he had work..

gim wei is dam funniee.. his expression is always the same den is like its dam funny la..
jus maybe wanna list all the silly things we did today and also jus some summary abt wad i did today..

* got enlightened by gim wei abt the speech of satisfaction.. I LIKE.. HE LIKE... hahaha.. this is somehow only being said if we see GOOD stuff..

*ok.. we went to the toliet.. all of us were each in a cubicle peein.. den gim wei say " how come this toilet bowl so low?" den we jus continued to pee.. den gim wei say somethin like wanna challenge sound or somethin or tryin to tell us that his cubicle toilet bowl is really low.. you know if the bowl is really low the pee sound is somehow very loud.. so is like we laughed den gim wei was also laughin and at the same time sayin " WoOi don laugh la, later aim wrong..!" i was laughin like crazy while peein.. i think i almost lost my aim?! hahaha.. i think all of us almost lost aim la.. hahaha.. Concentrate!!!

* gim wei.. weird tone and facial expression whenever he says " WoO~Oo~hoO~oO ".. niccee.. he now claims tittle of tat best original piece of "ACT".. the word is his.. hahaha.. under his copy right.. only he can do it the way tat gives tingles in the tummy..

* ok.. now.. this is me.. me.. gim wei went to bucks and is always to take plain water in large amounts.. and in this starbucks visitation in my entire life.. i've always manage to get water in small cups.. see in the pics above?.. now tat was the amount of ice water he was able to take.. shait.. hahaha..i'm totally embrassed.. dammit..

* khim leng.. alien tummy.. ahhh.. its really freakin me out la whenever i see that tummy of his.. and dam he is like always forcin it out.. ahhhhh.. hair stands.. nothin else but jus my hair..

* babe watch.. crazy.. today was crazy.. really.. funny and crazy.. my eyes are tried.. and gim wei totally surprised me wit his skills la.. shait..

* this stud.. thought khim leng bought this shoe from somewhere.. but, the truth is he custom it himself.. its good stuff alright havin ppl asked where u bought ur pair of shoes especially when u custom it urself.. cool stuff.. i too wanna have it custom by him.. yea!!!.. but, first.. no money.. dammit..

i dunno.. but, all this fun somehow came to an end.. i dunno y i can't seem to be communicatin wit her as usual.. i miss her.. i guess she doesn't... there is so many things stuck within me.. i'm feeling funny things all over again.. ahhh.. dam.. i've tried ways to picture things as friends.. but..... haiz... its gonna be really tough..

[ If only......... ]


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OuR ToPic Is....

couldn't believe that hangin out wit quite a group of guys can actually make me understand more abt how actually guys for the fact too are afraid of falling in love.. everybdoy has their history and a lesson that they learned from during the process where they were hurt deeply by the person they love most dearly.. it had been fun and also an interesting one....

i guess confidence and faith like wad they say have been shaken upon a painful experience.. sometimes i don understand who should deserve more pity.. the guys or the gals..? hmm... tough tough tough.. i guess wad i can say is that i would really wanna know more abt wad is goin on in their minds when it comes to relationships.. i guess i've never been there before, so i would really wanna know more.. hehe.. i mean the experiences they've been through.. i've been "lucky" i guess on this issue here..

goin to appeal on monday.. wad is goin to happen.. i still dunno who i can go with man.. sharks.. its the first time though i hang out with the studs till like 2am like tat.. in the market located at bedok.. near the police station.. around that area ba.. so yea.. in the earlier part of the day i went to the career fair at suntec.. JIE, i like couldn't find u la.. don say i never go and find u.. hehe...

i wanna thank see heng for lettin me rip his FORT MINOR album.. excellent la.. yea.!!! now this is all gonna turn out jus finee.. WoOoOhOoOo..

[ hmmm.. jus wonderin how come u r still out soo late.. *thinkin* i'll ask u when i'm up.. =) ]


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My GoaL... CaN'T Seem To See..

In the past.. i use to think.. it doesn't really matter to think abt wad u wanna be when u grow up.. somehow i've always been tryin to run away from this reality.. its amazing how it is actually catchin up with me every min every second.. it really matters though.. somehow or rather.. like the least u can have is like work towards ur goal or somethin.. i'm walkin aimlessly.. sharks..

when i received my posting results today, it somehow didn't really came to a shock to me.. expected.. one thing is true is tat with the effort i put in such results is attained is no surprise.. disappointing it is.. but, looks like all i can really do now is look forward and not look back.. but, wad really disappointed me the most is the interview results.. i wasn't even granted one.. it is sad to know abt that.. i guess i jus have to wake up.. but, at time i jus feel like i'm lost in the middle of nowhere with loads of paths in front of me.. but, somehow it seems like i'm jus day dreamin in the middle of nowhere, refusin to accept any help cause i'd rather be in my helpless state.. wad the hell do i wan in life is wad i really wanna know.. now things have happen i'm upset no doubt.. but, i guess i've gt to go through all this to learn.. i think i've gt to learn things the hard way.. but, definitely givin up is nt in my vocabulary.. i'll keep on movin.. i will.. MOVE ALONG..

somehow now i'm feelin the distance between those friends goin to poly.. a shame i have towards ppl in school now.. regrets i feel abt how much effort i could have put in.. but.. all is too late now.. i guess its true huh.. THE REASON WHY WE FALL IS SO THAT WE CAN LEARN TO PICK OURSELVES UP.. i will pick myself up.. but, jus really hope they won't give up on me..

thanks for all those nice words.. i mean those who called me and all.. really nice.. appreciate it loads.. I guess someday i'll know... someday..

Some Day's I Feel Like Shit, Some Day's I Wanna Quit & Just Be Normal For A Bit...


[ Wanted to cry on you.. hug you.. and so that i will feel the same way i always did when i was with you.. the feeling of * everything is gonna be ok*... thanks though.. even though nt physically there ur presence did me good somehow.. thanks.. =) ]


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HiEeeEEeeeEeeeeEeee......

alright.. i'm back to school today.. all because of cindy.. haiz.. her camera was down and i had to come to her aid.. i guess la come to her aid.. sometimes i like jus can't understand la why i do so much.. sharks.. good or bad?? wOOoHT.. haiz, wad to do afterall i'm free.. den saw dinie.. that is her in the picture above, chubbier as can be.. WoOOoOO..

oh well, lucky my day to school wasn't that bad afterall.. hahaha.. somebody say "hiEeEeeEe" to me la.. and of all ppl her.. wow..!! hehe.. thanks.. and it was a good thing tat i answered her "heyyy" in return, or else i'm gonna be like an arrogant fool man.. sharks.. still can remember a lil thing or two abt the situation.. there was a time i apologised to her for nt sayin hi and it somehow came to a agreement that we were suppose to say hie whenever we meet.. but, durin my time in school.. i did not even there to say anythin once she was in sight.. i would always somehow try to avoid her.. hahaha.. ahh yooo.. so nice la today everythin came to an end.. she said "hieeee" hahaha.. niccee... debt on agreement SETTLED..!!!

life has been really weird.. all i'm seeing is depressed people.. like ppl actin weird.. today wad really scared me the most is this student drinkin 3 regular cokes, was rather plump and it was soo bad tat i couldn't tell if he or she was a guy or gal.. i dunno wad the world is comin to..

hmmm.. den den on the way back.. met her.. LucKieEeee... den sat and talked for awhile.. jus wonderin how come it jus seems awkard whenever i jus sit dwn and talk to her.. is like i suddenly become a lost soul or somethin.. den is like if i'm with her after hrs den i will like begin to get all comfy all over again.. hmmm.. this is scary..

My heart beat jus skips more then its regular times...

[ tell u abt cammy?? sounded like she is like my real GF or somethin la.. sharks.. i'd rather have you la.. hehe.. k la.. don wan to stress u up.. whatever that is cool u keep it real.. =) ]


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IT FeELSss GoOD.. ThE UnCoUNTaBLe OKaeSs...

i was at home the whole day today.. almost the whole day until she came to my aid.. yea!!!

oh man.. and i wasn't like tryin to play hard to get la.. shait.. jus worried abt how u feel thats all.. but, i'm really touched that she was willing to go out wit me even though she was feeling like really tired.. oh well.. shots.. hahaha..

quite picky though she was wit the pictures we took.. taught a thing or two abt cammy to her.. i combined all the fun shots we took in a colleage.. so hope she'll like it.. hahaha.. WoOOoO.. ask me if u wan the pics k?? hehe...

Hip It, Live It, Love It....

[ I'LL HoLd On As LoNG As YoU WaNT Me To... I'LL LeT YoU BuLLY Me... ThaNKs AGaIN... AppReCiATe IT LOaDs.. ReaLLy.. =) ]


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BeinG a GaL FoR ThE DaY...

PICTURES OF OUTING WIT JIE

today... its the day where i feel like a girl la.. my colleage treat me almost everythin today.. den when goin back.. instead of sayin me walkin her to the bus stop she say she'll walk me half way to the mrt station... hahaha.. she is non other than my jie.. woOoOO.. and it feels good la tat i don have to reach for my wallet when i'm out wit her.. hahaha.. KFC was like on her.. ben & jerry's was also on her.. my previous macdonalds treat was also on her.. hahaha.. i can still remember i told her that i can get use to this [the treatin] whenever i'm out wit her... hahaha..

jie, jus playin la.. nxt time la i treat u.. but, jus dunno whether u are willing to accept it.. anyway, see urself there in one of the pics?? nice right..? the pic i took of u from that angle is like nice la.. i think u should consider puttin on eye liner lehz.. hmmm.. thanks for the treat again... hehe..

den, i least expect to see my religious class teacher there or to say my cat teacher.. sharks.. i like never see him for 3 yrs liao.. only on friendster la.. but, is like HIM.. oh man.. gosh.. den he never call me when he entered the shop.. and sharks i was so bothered lookin at his GF when they were in the shop.. shait.. btw, its Lai.. sharks.. but, anyway he said hi to me when he was abt to leave.. and i was soo lame.. he say " hey, u kept long hair" den i say " hey, urs is shorter now" his hair is like almost botak cos i think he went back to the army or somethin.. den i think he was also like wonderin la wad am i doin wit an older gal.. hahaha.. oh well jus tryin out dating an older gal i guess.. hehe.. jus didn't expect to see him there.. but, glad to have seen him..

den den.. shait.. i kinda got carried away wit the music in the shop.. i sing la.. OoOO.. jie say nice.. yay!! then i bully jie again.. dunno la, jus like to laugh at her.. sorry... i'm still in the midst of thinkin of cuttin my hair.. how how? i think i love my hair..

oh.. den on the way back in the train.. this 3 ladies were like so bothered abt this guy.. he had a caterpillar on his shirt.. den they were like gigglin over it, den in the end this lady told him abt the caterpillar den he was like.. " !!!!!!! ". hahaha.. den he jus wiped it off.. it fell on the ground in d train.. and the three ladies were still gigglin over it??? den laugh after someone accidently stepped on it.. OMG.. so funnieeee.. hahaha.. btw, i jus kept my silence upon seein the three ladies in action.. hahaha....

[ i'll wait patiently.. promise.. =) ]


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